So much to comment on here.
1. You two must be young. Late teens I would guess. For this reason alone, I say cut your losses now. Don't string this bad relationship out.
2. He is very insecure and jealous. This may or may not change with age.
3. He has a false view of sexuality--expressed, in part, by his reaction to you not having an orgasm. He needs to be educated, but you're probably not the one to do it. Not at this point anyway.
4. Your view upon sexuality seems to be more realistic and healthy than his. If you are young, as I suspect, it is quite usual for the female partner to be more mentally and emotionally mature than the male-- this is a fact of life.
5. Here's the part we in Western civilization have the hardest time coming to terms with. If you are a romantic you will hate what I am about to say. You say that you love him but you are not "in love" with him. One thing we must learn, to maintain sanity, is that love is
not something that happens
to you. Instead, love is something you
do. Love is a
choice you make. Love is
action. Yes, there is that first pleasurable feeling of anxious euphoria that accompanies the beginning of a passionate relationship. That is what is commonly called being "in love." Problem is, humans are physiologically incapable of maintaining any
emotion for a long period of time. Once the emotion wears off, and it will, you must honestly evaluate the relationship and your partner. Does this guy have the characteristics I require in a partner? Do I like this person? Should I
choose to make a commitment to him? The point is, you have a choice to make, and it should be a rational one, based on a logical process.
I hope something I've said is helpful.
**Aladdin steps down from his soapbox, tripping on his beard.**
