SpoilSport

My heart hurts after reading this.

I feel so badly for you, and wish there were some words of consolation I could offer. I don't know that I can offer up much, except for you to keep your chin up - it won't kill you - and your friends will rally around you to support you, this online community included. I have been where you are, a similar situation. I chose to remain in the relationship and know that I am loved, but living with the low grade suspicion that surfaces and the occassional twinge of pain when memories come back. Somedays it sucks.

While some couples come back from things like this, your situation seems a bit more extreme. You have to think about how much more you are willing to put yourself, and YOUR CHILD through. And always plan for the worst. Consult an attorney. Make the necessary steps to do what is best for the baby. Soemtimes that is completely different from what we think we want.