Giltwist

I am a bit in a bind, so I thought I would ask for some advice. A couple weeks ago I was dumped from an 18 month relationship because I really couldn't love her as much as she love me and she also claimed I just wasn't passionate at all.

So, now there's this other girl. We met a couple years back and had real chemistry right from the get go. So we started dating, and she fell for me hard and fast. I really wasn't ready for that, not just so soon into the relationship but psychologically speaking too. Every so often over the years, when neither of us had anybody, we'd occasionally sneak a kiss and it would be so intense that we were both like "Woah, can't do that again" So here we are, three years into a friendship and we are working together again.

Being lonely after the recent breakup, and being human, I snuck another kiss from her. I had forgotten what that lightning was like. Our chemistry is just so incredibly strong that I can't even describe it. That one kiss made her remember how she felt about me, and now I don't know what to do.

I don't think I love her but I can't deny the overwhelming sexual tension between us. When I'm with her, all I can think about is how much I want her skin against mine so I can feel that spark again. But when we're apart, nothing. I mean I still like her, but I don't feel that nagging ache or need to be with her like I would expect if I were "in love" with her. It's like she's this really awesome drug that's not addicting. But, let's be honest, it feels REALLY good just to have her lips brush my ears, and who doesn't like feeling good?

Thoughts? Suggestions?

G.