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Originally Posted by denim
I hope you won't do that to your kids. You sound like a good man caught in a meat grinder.
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Why not. God damn it. Why can't I been the one who is imature and irresponsible. Fuck why do I have to be the one that gets fucked over? She is ruining my life, why can't I ruin hers?
I picked her up to get the crib from the old house today and I was asking her about when she is planning on moving into the 2bed deplex, and she was complaining about how expensive it all was, and I told her she should move back in and we could get counciling. I said I know you were happy at some point in the last 4 years. And she said something along the lines of no not really. Which pissed me off. She told me how great this past week as been for her and I just lost it. I yelled a her for quite a while about everything that came to mind. I was just pissed. It was kind of nice to finally get it all out. This weekend has just been really really shitty for me. Anyway I was so upset that I walked into out old bedroom where the bed was still there with our sheets still on it and I just broke down crying knowing that i will probably never sleep with her in that bed again.
The thing that really gets me the most is that she does not even miss me. Even her sister has told me she has been in a good mood. She told her that she wishes I would just get a girlfriend so I would just leave her alone. I just don't think she cares about me or the kids, otherwise she would have stayed and tried to work something out.
Well I am off to try and get drunk tonight. thanks for listening