kutulu

I know you feel like that, but you shouldn't. It's a tough time and it's hard to accept change. There is nothing wrong with crying, except for being ashamed about it. Time heals most things. Hopefully this whole experience will make you a stronger person in the long run.

Personally, I'd be planning on ways to get even with her. Things like sleeping with her sister, friends, anyone she knows that would sleep with you. I'd also try to make it as obvious as possible to anyone who would listen that SHE is the bad one here. I'd try to salvage some sort of vengance I could while also making sure that you get the kids and SHE has to pay child support. That's just me and I can be mean when I'm betrayed.

EDIT
I want to amend that a little. What I basically meant was that I'd go for an all out emotional assualt on her. Doing whatever I could do to hurt her emotionally, however, I'd leave the kids out of it.

Maybe some sex would help you out. I konw it's not as easy as it seems but with the internet there are so many easier ways to hook up. It's only temporary comfort but it might make you feel a little better.

About working, do you have a realator's license? You mentioned selling model homes. There is huge money in real estate and it doesn't require college. My brother in law went from barely scraping by to a half million dollar house in the span of about a year and a half. How would that be for revenge? Hell, if you had full custody of the kids you could be making a shitload of money AND getting money from her for the kids!!