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Without Reason
Lost and alone, paralyzed with fear! Giving all that I have yet holding back the deepest part! Afraid to trust completely because to trust is to love and to love is to trust. I trust you with me, my mind, my heart, and well not yet my soul. To trust you that completely leaves me open to much more than hurt, pain, or rejection. It leaves me open to jealousy, hate, and the deepest fear one in love can feel... the fear of losing that which is most precious, the fear of losing myself in you. I trust you now more than I did yet how can I completely give myself to you when there is so much we don't know, so much we've yet to learn about one another. Already I fear I am losing you yet last night I felt closer to you than ever. I wanted more time to spend with friends but I still wanted to spend time with you. I have laughed and had fun but I have been waiting now. I have been waiting for you to love me, to show me. I have thought maybe you are getting discouraged and I should just give you everything, but I can not bring myself to do that. I love you. But I want you to love me for me. You say you do. I believe you. Well this is me and this is how I feel. I love you. I want you. I need you. I trust you. I fear you. I fear what you do to me, what you make me feel. No one has done to me what you have. There has never been anyone like you in my life! This is all so new, so special, so frighteningly wonderful. It is too good to be true. I am in Heaven but no I am in Hell. I ask what have I done to deserve this, it is too good, yet I will not give it up. I want this now. Scared, lost, alone, together, warm, content, satisfied, craving more! Wanting, Needing, Loving! All because of you! All for you!
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Cain: I know what you're doing. I've lead troops into battle before.
DG: And, how am I doing?
Cain: Well, there's less *hugging* when I do it
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