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I don't think that she has slept with the RX8 guy. His name is Joe I find out. Apparently he is just taller and older and hits on her alot. He was drunk one night and she was able to drive his car. Its her dream car and has always wanted one, so I heard all about her driveing it, but never really got good details as to how or why, just that he was too drunk to drive. As for the guy she kissed at the bar, well thats another guy altogether. She just has a thing for taller skinnier guys. I am like 5 10ish and 195, I am loosing some weight by dieting and excersizing, but I will never grow any taller. I just think that she is wanting something that she does not have.
The other day we were at the walmart and somehow we were talking about her kissing that guy and I said jokeingly "you know since you kissed that guy I should be able to kiss a girl, you know its only fair." She said that she would not care. Not cause she is sorry for doing it, but that she just wonldn't care. The biggest thing that pissed me off, is that it is near impossible to met any girls when you work selling houses all day and then come home to watch the gils, I never see anyone except for a few older people at work. So I could not cheat if i wanted to. I don't want to, but sometimes I think that if I did maybe it would wake her up a bit.
So as for last night, instead of comeing home to watch the movie that she wanted to watch, she went out with friends till all hours of the night. I was hoping that after I left the bar she would come right home.
As for her "friends" I really do think that she is going to bars, she comes home drunk and I have seen recipts from the debit card she used. I don't think that she has slept with anyone yet, she could hardly look at me when she kissed the guy the other day. I don't think that she would do it. At least I hope not.
I can't just give up on this relationship. there has to be some way of salvaging this, even just while the kids are still young.
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