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They've still got a long way to go before they can treat mental illness with any precision
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I believe this is true. I'm not even going to get into psychiatric drugs and medication.
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These days its almost fashionable to suffer from one mental disorder or the other. The more "severe" your condition the higher your status
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I often internalize things to the point where I'm pretty sure something will happen in the next 10 minutes that will greatly change my life for the worse because I'm afraid of being seen as some "dorky ass teenager who listens to korn and likes to revel in his own twisted, demeneted, world of blah blah blah".
Even the threat of prison doesn't phaze me in the apex of a psychotic episode. When I come down I realize just how fucking serious this problem is, but I can't get legal, affordable, acceptable treatment for it. There is just no fucking way for me to find relief aside from using drugs (it may be textbook, but it keeps me alive and it may even keep your or your mother alive, should one of you catch me on a bad day and give me a look I don't like). But really, talking about it is embarassing. I'm told everyone has problems and teens and kids into their 20s are fucked up and blah blah and that its just a normal thing. It's either that or I go back into the fucking hospital where I'm not allowed to hang out with friends, get high, look at porn, have sex, and where my most extensive therapy consists of countless hours of watching TV, coloring, and a daily one hour session with some asshole in a tweed jacket I met only days prior.
God fucking damn it. Please someone make this world a better place with one felt blow.