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My problem with Christianity has always been when those who are Christians treat me like I'm broken are incapable of making a good decision on my own without Jesus in my life. All that stuff about love and acceptance didn't seem to make up for the fact that I was an unrepetant sinner going to hell.
Well, that was the main problem. The other problem is that I don't believe in God. I see no reason to believe in God. Since reaching some paradoxical problems about the idea of God and accepting that God was absurd concept and bared no relation to my actual human experience, I feel that I actual start being "spiritual". Finding meaning in life on my own without accepting any other structure as an ultimate authority has put me in a position to value things in a way that I don't think I ever could while trying to believe in something that I couldn't believe in.
I don't find it helpful to be angry anymore... once you realize that there's nothing wrong with living in the absense of God, and understand that other people aren't going to get it and that is not a reflection of you, you can be at ease with yourself. It is ok.
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Innominate.
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