Martel

Off and on, yes... We're getting to the point that we've been together longer than she has ever been in a relationship before. That one was practically hell for her, she was stuck in a situation she didn't know how to get out of, and from time to time she seems to get afraid that I'm going to turn out like the other guy, or that our relationship is going to turn out like that one. We always deal with this whenever it comes up, its just taking a lot of work to get her out of the way of thinking she was in for so long.

To make things worse, even though she is saying that she's feeling better than she has in a long time about sex and sexuality, I've been feeling bad about it for so long now that I'm having a hard time feeling anything other than sexually timid and unwanted. We used to have sex no less than once a day and frequently more often than that, and lately its been more like once or twice a week. I know that's still doing better than plenty but for me sometimes it just makes me feel like now that she can have me whenever she wants it's just not exciting.