Cynthetiq

It's weird. We try so hard to grow up and get to the top, only to realize that we're really at the bottom again, it's just a moment of a plateau. I experienced that when graduating middle school, high school, and well.. I didn't finish college.

But it's the same even in the work force. You stay someplace and you eventually go from the fuckin' new guy to the old timer... and when you move on because there's no more for you to learn... you become the FNG again.

It's good that you are introspective and able to see the difference between the realities. It's not an easy thing to do when speaking in the tongues of love.

I had to just stop dating for a while in my life until *I* made myself grow, until *I* was able to comfort myself after a bad day... it wasn't easy it took time, but I'm a stronger person for it.

good luck. and we're all here for you...

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