Take a deep breath, take three deep breaths - and relax...
Whatever problems your parents are having are their problems. It's not your fault. It's not your business. If they try to get you involved, remind them that you are the child (even if you are over age 18) and it is not your business.
Everyone has bouts in insecurity, if anyone tells you that they are 100 percent secure 100 percent of the time, I will do the liar liar pants on fire dance on their head. It's normal to doubt yourself occassionally, what you need to work on is your confidence. Don't forget the good stuff about yourself.
I suggest this to people a lot, because I really do find it helpful. Keep a journal. It doesn't have to be a public journal either, only if yuo want to share it with others, rather than talking, or if you want people to comment. A journal is a good way to get all those thoughts that are spinning around in your head out, and put them in a format tomake sense out of them.
You have a lot going on right now. Pick one thing to focus on, and work on improving that. maybe your attitude towards your job, or putting together a plan to get off academic probation, while it seems overwhelming all at once. If you break it down, and concentrate on one thing at a time, you can manage it.
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Free your heart from hatred. Free your mind from worries. Live simply. Give more. Expect less.
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