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Yeah. I can do one-on-one situations ok, but if there are more than a few people involved, my anxiety kicks in. I often find myself just listening to other people talk, and while I think about the subject and what I'd say about it, I never say anything. So I end up looking like a fool just sitting/standing there and being quiet.
It might have to do with the fact that I have a slight speech problem. I often find it difficult to articulate and while in a conversation I may start thinking about this problem and it often blocks me from saying what I'd want to say. Lately this has bothered me a lot, but I just try to cope with it and learn to speak more slowly so I could some day overcome it.
All this has affected my self confidence quite a bit or maybe previous lack of it has made me like this, I don't know. Sometimes I get angry with myself just thinking about how things that others do so naturally require such huge effort from myself.. why the hell do I have to be so difficult?
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