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When I was in middle school, I used to have this terrible problem where I'd blush horribly every time I had to speak in front of class. I always had opinions and I was always participating so this was a problem. Sometimes people would actually ask me about it and then I'd blush some more and stutter some answer. It was so embaressing that I eventually mastered it (I'm still not quite sure how)....so now I can usually talk perfectly fine in front of groups of people.
HOWEVER, I hate being around groups of people I don't know. Especially if they know each other already. I always feel so out of place. Over time, I've sort of developed a defense mechanism where I either find reasons not to like everyone else around me or I'll just stand there with a nasty expression on my face. I've heard that I look at people like they have 8 eyes or like I want to kill them. Some people just say I look like I think I'm better than them. As a result, it's incredibely hard for me to meet people in new environments. They always just assume the worst about me and I don't try to change their minds until it's too late.
Oh yeah...and I always feel like people are looking at me. /shifty eyes
So yes, I think I do have something of a problem with that.
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