gondath

I have a pretty bad form of general anxienty disorder with traces of social anxiety disorder. Mostly I get nervous if I get into social situations without an immediate objective. Completing a task with someone has a goal and sharing an interest going on at the moment is ok, but parties are not for me at all. I tend not to talk a lot anyways, even when am perfectly comfortable, which is coming more often. I notice people don't react well to quite individuals. They must think they're boring or snoobish I suppose. I find giving myself a measure of power over a situation can lessen anxiety. I fixate on the failings and shortcomings of people around me to remind myself how temporary and mortal people are. My own seem less awful afterwards. Anxiety has little to do with reality in any event. It's a throwback to times when people needed fear for survival. In ancient times, I would be the last person to be eaten by a dinosaur. Oddly enough, I just feel more secure also when I'm in a shield of anonymity and fugue. I can do my best when everything seems like it doesn't matter. I don't know if any of that would help you, but just remember that anxiety is placing too much emphasis on something which doesn't warrant it.