Kyp

Something that I never thought would happen to me. I was used by a woman. She pulled me and wouldn't let me go until she found somebody else. It's near enough to make me want to completely stay away from them. I'm kind of a sap, though, and I've wanted a good pretty girl that I could spend some time with for a long time. I thought she may have been it, but it turns out that I was completely wrong. It's kind of weird though, I'm happier now than I was for almost the entire 8 months that we were together. I guess I should have realized that, but I got so wrapped up in this woman that I didn't want to think about any of the bad things about our relationship. I wish I would have taken the time to, and to learn a few more things about her that I heard a little bit about now. But it's far too late for that. I knew she had a rough past but I didn't know quite everything, and part of me refused to let me learn, and that came back and bit me in the ass.

Now I'm not sure what to do. I really want to get out and meet someone new, but this girl was actually my first relationship, and it was only because she started it. I'm shy as hell and can hardly say a thing to someone without them saying something first. It's something I've been trying to get over for a very long time but I haven't had any luck with it. I'm also a little worried about just getting a repeat of what happened, though I know the chances of that are pretty slim.

I guess now I just go back and get lost in life again. I'm not even sure what my point is in posting this.