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Originally posted by noahfor
I really don't trust in counseling or doctors. I can't imagine talking to someone ever making me feel better, when I have nothing to feel bad about. I've been to therapy, and I hate it. I have a very hard time talking to people in person. I think running is my best bet, but right now my emotions are so turbulent because I'm quitting the medication and smoking. I had planned to quit at different times because I thought it might be too much at once, but quitting the meds gave me the strength to quit smoking I think. I need to wait until I level off.
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I don't mean to pry but if I were you, I’d strongly consider counseling. You sound like you have some resentment, trust and forgiveness issues. Those feed off of anger, which you seem to be boiling over with. The extreme isolation you feel, and the judgements you make on others, are tools you may have used for protection as a child, but will only bring you discontentment in your life as an adult now. I understand you not wanting to take meds, but there
really is something to be said for therapy. I’m not sure why you have an aversion to counseling, but anything from your past should not influence the healthy, productive decisions you make for yourself today. Shopping around for the right help might be in order, but never give up. Once you find the right one, you can really amaze yourself! Just remember, counseling, psychiatry, psychologists, and therapists, are all tools for us to use to better ourselves. They’re not there to scrutinize, they’re there to help us, help ourselves. Exercise is wonderful, but will not cure you of working through important issues concerning your psychological and emotional well being.
Needing help understanding why we do the things we do is nothing to be ashamed of, and self-awareness is one of the most important gifts of life.