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Skettios, I feel for you man. I've personally been in that same situation with a girl that I liked many times, and frankly, I'm tired of it.
I helped do some maintenance work in a house the other day, and I had to go inside the place to do the work. About 3 or 4 college-aged guys lived there. They were sitting around watching TV, and I noticed that a very attractive girl was sitting in the living room with them. I figured she was probably a girlfriend of one of the guys, and really thought nothing more of it. I quickly found out that she is the girlfriend of this real asshole/fratboy type guy that lives there.
I had to go into his bedroom for a few minutes, and I noticed a box of condoms on his dresser, with one of the wrappers laying open next to the box. I'm not sure why, but I felt incredible anger/sadness when I saw this box. I just couldn't believe that this asshole was fucking this girl and generally enjoying a relationship with her, and I have nobody. I should be the one enjoying a relationship with a great girl. This particular girl probably isn't worth a shit if she's with such a fratboy type, but that's beside the point.
It seems as though nice guys generally do finish last. I may not seem very nice on this forum, but I generally use the TFP to get a lot of shit off my chest. I'm really not that bad of a guy, and I thought I had a great relationship up until a month ago. That all turned to shit, and I'm finding the feelings that I had before I dated my ex-girlfriend coming back in a huge rush. Feelings of bitterness mainly.
I have resigned myself to getting a good paying job, buying my dream home in the woods, and just living there with my firearms and pets. I really doubt that I'll ever find someone interested in me again, and it hurts. Life isn't fair, and I guess it could be worse.
Sorry for the rant.
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