wow... Mine don't go back quite that far... and I've lost more of the journals that I did have previously to 2000. I did have some pages in one from the early 90's... but I ripped them out and threw them away so I couldn't read them anymore (did that to help begin getting over being molested).... so I don't have many at all before 2000.
But I'll add to the post with some of the oldest ones I have currently:
4/23/2000
As I look at myself I see a happy person with lots to give and lots of hope. Yet when I looked iinto a mirror I saw a nothingness beyond all disbelief. I am happier now than I've ever been, am happier with myself more than ever, but I feel empty, like I'm not giving enough.
3/19/01
Laying Awake.
eyes glued shut...
pallid skin deep blue...
matted golden hair, wavering in the wind....
the noose being pulled tight.
No air,
No life,
No time,
Only struggle...
Minutes grow longer..
Breathing weakens...
Last living thought.. "I loved you"
K....figure that's all I'll add.. because I don't want to take up too many pages
