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Coll Storm · 06-14-2004, 01:58 AM

First off: Pardon any and all typo's. I'm posting this at 6am, after crawling in bed at 11pm, and tossing & turning through the night.

I'm sure that most of you know my situation by now, as it relates to my job, and right now...

Right now I feel like the world is about to end, and there's nothing I can do about it.

For the past three years I have worked for the same backwards company, with it's backwards rules, and I have stretched myself to bend over backwards and follow those rules.

I have been underpaid, and have volunteered my time on numerous occasions, but not a thanks was given. I have sacrificed my ears to listen to my co-workers, parents, and childrens feeling, complaints, and everything else in between. In that whole time, I don't feel like anyone has listened to me.

I forgot to mention that I'm in childcare. I teach kindergarten in the morning, and work in an after-school program during the afternoon ( who would of thought? ). During the summer both jobs are phased out and are replaced with a summer camp program.

Now between the time of both programs is usually a transition week where the employees have off from the kids, but are still required to work, to get things cleaned up and ready. This is usually the week that I take off... to destress myself.

Well, because of snow days and such... the camp has been moved up into this week, and I've been told that my vacation has to wait until the July 12th thru the 16th.

At this point I haven't eaten all weekend, because I've lost my appetite. I've also been sleeping a total of three hours a night, If I'm lucky.

I'm posting this on Monday morning at 6am, and I have to be up at 9am. We also have a meeting tonight, so it's going to be a 12 hour day.

I'm at my wits end... and have nobody to talk with. That's why I'm posting. I'm questioning everything that I am at this point. I love childcare, but for the past month or so I'm asking myself why the hell I'm in this line of work. I've never done that.... ever. I don't want to go into work today, but have to, because I'm the responsible one.

I work to make money, but I'm miserable at work. If I don't work, I can't pay my bills, and remain unhappy either way. I'm damned if I do, and damned if I don't.

Dear god... where the hell is the end of this story?

Any advice is appreciated.

Thanks

-Coll

06-14-2004, 01:58 AM	#1 (permalink)
Coll Storm Crazy Location: Boston	My continued dilemna First off: Pardon any and all typo's. I'm posting this at 6am, after crawling in bed at 11pm, and tossing & turning through the night. I'm sure that most of you know my situation by now, as it relates to my job, and right now... Right now I feel like the world is about to end, and there's nothing I can do about it. For the past three years I have worked for the same backwards company, with it's backwards rules, and I have stretched myself to bend over backwards and follow those rules. I have been underpaid, and have volunteered my time on numerous occasions, but not a thanks was given. I have sacrificed my ears to listen to my co-workers, parents, and childrens feeling, complaints, and everything else in between. In that whole time, I don't feel like anyone has listened to me. I forgot to mention that I'm in childcare. I teach kindergarten in the morning, and work in an after-school program during the afternoon ( who would of thought? ). During the summer both jobs are phased out and are replaced with a summer camp program. Now between the time of both programs is usually a transition week where the employees have off from the kids, but are still required to work, to get things cleaned up and ready. This is usually the week that I take off... to destress myself. Well, because of snow days and such... the camp has been moved up into this week, and I've been told that my vacation has to wait until the July 12th thru the 16th. At this point I haven't eaten all weekend, because I've lost my appetite. I've also been sleeping a total of three hours a night, If I'm lucky. I'm posting this on Monday morning at 6am, and I have to be up at 9am. We also have a meeting tonight, so it's going to be a 12 hour day. I'm at my wits end... and have nobody to talk with. That's why I'm posting. I'm questioning everything that I am at this point. I love childcare, but for the past month or so I'm asking myself why the hell I'm in this line of work. I've never done that.... ever. I don't want to go into work today, but have to, because I'm the responsible one. I work to make money, but I'm miserable at work. If I don't work, I can't pay my bills, and remain unhappy either way. I'm damned if I do, and damned if I don't. Dear god... where the hell is the end of this story? Any advice is appreciated. Thanks -Coll