This one is rather close to home for me. I met a guy who I fell madly in love with when I was married, and consequently separated from my husband.
This man lived in another state and was unable to move for his own personal reasons, so me, in my insane-in-love wisdom decided I would move to live with him and leave my two girls with their father. I figured I could still see them in the school holidays, and perhaps after a while they may wish to move down to live with me. I guess I harbored this thought for 3 or 4 weeks before I decided I just could not do it - I looked at my youngest child, who was only two at the time, and could not fathom not being with her every day...the same of course went for my older girl.
I broke the news to my man, and after spending some time with him, decided not to pursue the relationship. It just didn't work for us. Still, I look back on that time and try to revisit my mindset where I was willing to leave my two precious babies for a man I had only just met. Fucking crazy stuff.
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