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I agree with amonkie; that line just jumped out at me. Duty is not genuine in the same way that doing those things merely out of love or concern are. It reminds me of Kant's categorical imperative, and my biggest criticism of it: what about you? Duty for duty's sake is lacking when it isn't intrinsic - it sounds like you come naturally to duty, but not to the connection with the person you enact these actions of duty towards. (for you it is women, for Kant it is God and society...) Find a way to weigh heavier on the connection than the sense of duty...
You get tired because you don't really focus on yourself enough. You continue to pour yourself out as this amazing person that is good at everything, but what are you getting out of it other than a reputation and an ego of being that "great guy"?
Throw all of that shit out of the window. I'd wager that your great listening skills aren't being matched your great skills of letting your guard down and truly sharing yourself. How many people out there really know you? The good and the bad? The terrible you and the wonderful you? Who would stay for both?
Your willingness to leave shows your unwillingness to advance naturally through the course of a relationship to create a genuine tie that would warrant such gift-giving. Slow down and make it mean something... not in a "southern gentlemanly" way, but in a sincere one-on-one way. If the girl is worth it, then she will also be worth it if you go slower through the process of the relationship. She will appreciate your desire not to rush things and your desire not to make things get out of hand. She will appreciate that you are both sure about what you want before "getting tired" or finding that she's really the one...
In this circumstance it appears that your homework assignment is to figure out what it is that want in a relationship that you haven't been getting, and where you're going to get it.
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Innominate.
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