Skettios

I'd like to think that there are a lot of you out there with the same problem I have. I'm extremely lonely. It's not that I don't have any friends, I have lots. People seem to really enjoy me, they like my opinions, my optimism, and my enduring good nature. Somehow though, I still end up lonely at the end of the night. It's not that I don't know any girls, I know tons of them. For some reason, none of the people I'm into ever seem to be really into me.

There are probably a lot of reasons for this.

1. I'm pretty fat, and I know girls aren't into this at all.
2. I'm pretty insecure, and although I don't have any problem making friends, I do have trouble impressing girl's and keeping girlfriends.
3. I'd really like to meet someone who is as into me, as I am into them, but unfortunately this seems to be a rarity.

I'm at the point now where I don't know what to do with myself. I have a lot of friends, but I haven't had a girl who was interested in me in a really long time. Every girl I get close to, I always seem to be on the friends list. Worse than that, I seem to fall in love really easily, and get really disappointed when that girl ends up with another dude.

I'm at the point now where I would do anything I could to just interrupt the cycle. I've tried everything, losing weight, hanging out with different people... no matter what I feel like I've already lost, it doesn't matter how hard I try.

I'm not sure what I expect from this post. I'd prefer other lonely people like me. I also would appreciate those of you who have been in my position and found your way out of it.

I'm on the verge of giving up hope. I feel like no matter what I do, I'll always be fat (don't believe me? I've worked out at the same gym 4 times a week, I lost 20 pounds, and the minute I slipped, it all came back, and it's not like I eat fast food or even over eat. Scientifically, I know no one believes me, but someday I'll be vindicated). No matter how hard I try, fundamentally I'll always be unlovable. Feels like the only thing left to do is accept my fate.

The worst part is that lately, I've completely given up hope, but at the same time, I've met this girl who is as wonderful as anyone can be. She's smart, liberal, and not completely without her own problems, in love with me, but only as a friend. On one hand I don't feel like I can let her go, but on the other, I feel like I've already lost. I want to get rid of her, and be free in my independence, but at the same time, I really wish it could work somehow. I'm lost, but I can't give up hope, I'm a goner, and my own fatalism recognizes that, but I can't seem to give in.

I'm completely at a loss as to what to do. I guess I'm writing this in the hopes that there are others like me out there. I feel for you guys, and maybe with luck we can support each other.

Please share your stories, and maybe we can all take some relief in the fact that we aren't the only ones, so confused.

No offense to the rest of you, but it would be nice to keep this thread sympathy only. If you've got the whole 'love' thing figured out, that's great, but it's really not going to help anyone in this thread.

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