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Thank you for all the great advice. I've been taking alot of it to heart, and its starting to help.
One thing I've been saying to myself is that I shouldnt worry about her cheating, and just know that if she does that I'll be able to handle it. Im still scared that she will, but I see that it's been something thats been carried through with my from all my relationships. I need to work on it.
She's given me tons of reassurance that she wont be bad during beach week.... I guess I might also be still a bit upset that she doesnt want me to go. Seeing we planned to go since last year, even planned to go by ourselves and maybe with another couple, and then she drops me for her friends. Didnt make me feel too good. I guess that now because I cant go and that I've heard that one of her friends will most likely be "all over the place" with other guys, it just worries me that my gf will do the same.
Maybe I'm starting to get over the whole flirting thing, but im still sensitive. I still dont want her doing it when Im there with her. I guess im getting over her doing it when Im not there by "window shopping" myself. I was with my boss at lowes buying bolts for a new rackmount server, and he was noticing some cute girl's butt. Now, before I would act like that person didnt exist. Now I started to look, maybe joke around a little. I guess that experience made me feel a little better. I dont know.
Im still hurt and petrified that something will happen, and that maybe she is plotting behind me. Thats what other girls did. Now I've paranoid and a conspiracty theorist with relationships.... I dont exactly know how to get over that.
(And yes, I have been in therapy, for some time now, it hasnt as helped as much as this thread has)
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