Hi everyone.
I did a lot of things for the first time in my life tonight.
I accepted an ex-girlfriend back after spending to months alone, apart from friends, and realizing I can be a much better person. But that was a few days ago.
Tonight, I found m Sony Camcorder and looked up on the net how I could use it as a webcam. Then my recently ex-girlfriend/recently current girlfriend came online. One thing led to another and (I was completely sober, totally in control) I stripped for her, masturbated and came three times for her (in a half hour time period) and talked until 4am with her.
I know this isn't said so often but I think getting back with her, and deciding that from now on I'm in control, was one of the best decisions of my life. That's what I think.
But this thread's in Sexuality because this is the first time I've ever done anything like this. I've never had a webcam for one thing. She told me what she wanted to see, and if I agreed then I did it. She is quite conservative and almost prudish at times, but I could tell that this experience (watching me jerk off with her in a safe environment with no pressure) really helped her. Some of the things she said online were amazing, and she called me halfway through and wow, she sounded very open and very free. She can be very, very conservative, but she loved this, and spoke in language (about both me and herself) like I've never heard her do before.
I stripped naked in front of my camera, I got hard and jerked off, reading the raunchy things she wrote. Then I did it again, and again. While I was doing so I showed her a few things I liked which she'd been a bit unsure of at first, but the fact that she wasn't 'there' and that she was safe, was a huge benefit.
If anyone else has ever done anything like this I'd love to hear about it here
This was the first time I've ever done anything like this and I'm feeling thrilled, a little nervous still (an hour after the event), but also very liberated
Not turned on though, ssince I came three times and am exhausted!
Anyway, I mainly wanted to tell somene, and since me jerking off to my girlfriend on a webcam isn't exactly something you can tell a lot of people about, I wanted to tell the TFP