Blame, shame, and withdrawal -- none of it brings him back. You hold him in your memories.
Today you must live, for your daughter. She needs to be held physically, and loved. She deserves a life, despite the death of her brother.
I'm not saying you aren't living for her -- just pointing out the obvious. I do not know what I'd do in such a situation! Devastation is not a strong enough word.
Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
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If you can go deeply into lovemaking, the ego disappears. That is the beauty of lovemaking, that it is another source of a glimpse of god
It's not about being perfect; it's about developing some skill at managing imperfection.
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