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Originally posted by Xsas
But lately, I've been thinking, what if there is some kind of connection beyond just physical attraction, like, I could really trust someone and get to know her better, even after all the initial liking (which may or may not be one-sided, you don't know).
So you sit and ponder, talk to her everyday, and you think things are going great. So then you tell her how you really feel.
And then she says she just wants to be friends.
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I was extremely bitter for a year or two, and ruined what could have been some completely wonderful relationships (straight used some lovely beautiful girls for my intentions, and then dropped them). I know I crushed a couple hearts (after having mine severely crushed). Now, for the last two years I've been wondering if I'm getting the reciprocity of that.
I've gotten to that point with a couple girls where I'm extremely attracted, like (wouldn't call it love, I'm hesitant to use that word anymore), and confide in these women. Yet, one of them when I expressed how I felt she did something similar. I can tell she watches me, and gets a kick at knowing how I feel (she hasn't told me how she feels towards me), but she also makes it clear we're just friends (which is actually more than fine with me, there's some other complications in there I won't go into). Although, with the other, I'm almost afriad to share my feelings. I don't know her all that well, and vice-versa, and I don't want to share how I feel just to have her say "I just want to be friends", because call me selfish, but that's not what I want.
I guess I should get over myself, and just tell her how I feel and accept the cards I'm dealt, but when you find someone so beautiful, so intelligent, and who actually has similar standards as yourself (unlike most women I've seemed to meet these last two years who simply lie, cheat and steal) I dunno, I'm rambling, but I know exactly how you feel Xsas.