Zorvox

It’s all a big load of bullshit
Who takes the role of leadership?
I wish you could be bought
Captured visions of what I thought

Needles, I can feel them inside
The sharp pains wont subside
Your hate, my terminal retribution
Suicide is the prized solution

People did their best for me, even my mother
But now I sit and wonder, why did she even bother?
This life, so painful it only seems to be fucking hard
Fighting through life, I won’t forget to hold up my guard

Come everyone, see what toll life has taken on me
I wish somehow, people could just leave me be
I’ve held on for so god damned long
I’ve fallen weak from being so strong

It’s all caught up to me
Now’s about time to wake up
Wish I knew why all I want to do is cry
I’ve set myself free, now it’s time to die

A scar of love hides my face
With you, I had a secret place
I could run there when I was down or hurt
Now I’m left being treated by all like dirt

With every breath I inhale
I can feel your betrayal
Not everything is good forever
Now that we aren’t together

I hope you all understand
Why I tried to take her hand
Who will I be to her in the end
To me, will she be a friend?

With one another, we never had secrecy
Which helped me feel a level of security
Now that I think about it, was it all a big bloody lie?
All the time we have wasted, did she even try?

Was everything a conspiracy
Or was it my own theory
Did I feed myself bullshit
Or am I just full of it

Everything includes your hate
It feels like this is my fate
Sometimes, even good people commit crimes
I’ve done nothing, except left you with these rhymes

You’ve left me here, by myself to be punished
From my life, you have seemed to of vanished
Can it still be called love, even if it was one sided
To the sickening rules of love we never abided

Was it all just a story
It really makes me worry
I don’t want to feel insane
From all of it I feel so much pain

Why was there so many people involved
With that many people it should’ve been solved
With everyone, I’ve fallen into so much strife
Hi everyone, welcome to my fuckin’ life

Who gives a fuck if I like heavy metal and steak
That doesn’t mean that I was a mistake
I’m not saying that was the problem
Just an example for your post-mortem

You said you loved me, obviously you didn’t
You’ve let other people take over your decisions
Everything good for everyone is well deserved
Once I got some of it, people took advantage of me

Everyone wants something from me
Give it I do, but with no please or thank you
SOMEONE SHINE A FUCKING LIGHT
So I can finally see where I need to go

Here I am sitting here losing my only mind
Contagious self pitty is my only state of mind
Oh if only I could take time and press rewind
If only I was more cautious and awake to your kind

So many people fucked me over
So many people turned their back on me
The only person I can trust is I
Now that’s my only reason to fight

If only I could slit their throat
Deffinantly that would float my boat
Fucking hell the thought of them makes me sick
Be strayed by strangers, damn your really thick

I’m stuck in my cage which is trapped inside a dream
Surrounded by thoughts that leave me terrorized
Suddenly reality hits me and I’ve finally realized
That you’ve left me less of a man and totally petrified

With these last and final few words
Everyone should realize my life’s ruined
With me being guilty it isn’t hard to predict
That all will be taken when I’m delivered my verdict