Strange Famous

OK, I've been having a pretty bad time of things recently, and I am thinking of going to see a Dr, to ask for counselling or maybe anti depressants - but is their any way my employer or any future employers could find out about it if I did?

I know when I got this job and on some applications it always asks you if you have suffered any health problems and depression is sometimes included - plus when you start a new job here you get a medical - at that medical could the companies dr get access to my medical records to see if I had received any help for depression?

I mean, I am starting to feel maybe I do need some help because I've been feeling pretty messed up and just the whole stiff upper lip thing really isnt making me feel any better - but I dont think I could do it if there is a chance other people (like perspective employers) could find out, because it would definitely stand against you.

And I mean, its not like I'm on the verge of suicide, and I think there is a definite amount more of feeling this way I could take before I had a break down - I just feel down a lot, sometimes I just get really sad and helpless, and the other day I had a crying jag for no reason which is messed up, I've read about social anxiety phobia's, and I sometimes feel that way too, I dont like to meet new people or for strangers to talk to me - unless there is a formal reason that they should. I dont think, I hope anyway, that Im not really THAT mad, but maybe I do need a little help to start seeing things right and be happy again.

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hidden will not become manifest, and nothing covered will remain
without being uncovered."

The Gospel of Thomas