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So, how do I feel positive?

What can possibly be good about me?

I'm twenty-freaking-eight and I haven't been kissed -- that pretty much proves that I'm not as good as my friends

You all on this board talk likes its really easy, like getting laid is just another thing

IT'S NOT EASY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If it were, I wouldn't be here

I'm not actually that interested in "getting laid" -- at this point I'll settle for a kiss

I guess it's just another stupid fantasy

EDIT: No.

No.

I refuse to talk so negatively.

This is what I will do:

For the next several months, there is something I'm going to change.

Here it goes (*big sigh*):

I am not looking for a girlfriend.

I want to concentrate on being a better friend and having more control over my mood swings. I've got to follow my friends' advice, and write about this sort of stuff in a dairy.

I meet new people all the time. My circle of friends is always getting bigger, because my friends introduce me to more friends.

It's better for me to not look for more than friendship right now.

You know, this feels a bit like giving up. But it's not, really (I sure hope not, anyway). The simple fact is, if I were to get into a relationship now, I would likely become completely co-dependant.

So that's why I'm making this change, and deciding not to look for a while.

Geesh, I'm a hetero guy and I sound just like some girls I've known...

Anyway, I've got my diary to write, so I'll update this thread in a couple weeks.

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