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sex sometimes makes me feel embarassed and confused, sexuality is not an important part of my life, anything I consider "kinky" makes me feel guilty and strange - I consider any sexual act that is harmful, demeaning, non consenual, painful or fetished to be to some degree against my personal morality. I talk about people that I would or wouldnt like to sleep with, but talking seriously about sex makes (in real life) makes me uncomfortable, I consider some of my sexual fantasies to be abnormal and immoral (most of them are hero fantasies, where I rescue girls from various types of danger, and probably get hurt in the process). In relationships, I am very protective, I tend to be attracted to people who seem vulnerable and might need my protection - sometimes I feel almost like I have to compete though, to try and feel as unhappy as my SO other does, I have an abnormal desire to do violence to the perpetrators of sexual crimes, if I see a girl and a guy arguing in a street, a part of me wants to go and beat the guy, I would feel very uncomfortable in approaching someone or being in a situation that was just casual sex, but to be realisrtic if I found myself in that situation I'd probably do it.
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"Do not tell lies, and do not do what you hate,
for all things are plain in the sight of Heaven. For nothing
hidden will not become manifest, and nothing covered will remain
without being uncovered."
The Gospel of Thomas
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