Mephex

No punctuation here, nor any of the grammatical niceites.
Your input is more then welcome.

i feel as if i am heading into a trap
i am just walking, and i see it right there
it's so clear, it's so obvious
the funny thing, is that this trap has gotten me before
i know i should stop, turn around and walk away
but it's pulling me in

we broke up. i left. i pay half the rent so she can live there.
she'd have me over, and we'd have the best sex ever.
no love, no emotions, just pure, dirty sex.
anal.

i realize now, that in each successful encounter, it was her idea.
her bidding.

but now, when i am wishing to continue our exploration...

she needs to breathe
she needs space

wow, does that sound familiar.

I'm not trying to be in a relationship, i just want to have fun.

with someone else i suppose.

as I really don't see how this could ever turn into anything good.

i want to go over there, i want to take pictures, i want to post them.

but now she claims that i ask to come over every day.

which is such a lie. but. it's par for the course. as, when we were together,
i would always be hounding her for sex. but this isn't true either. as it's all
her way of seeing things. and now, i feel as if i'm a terrible person.

a sex hound.

let her breathe.

the trap is there, it's lingering, if i take one more step, this will end too.

fuck.