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past relationships:the backlash...your opinions please
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If you are comfortable with your number, and don't have any problems with it, then well, sorry, but it's his problem. How did the conversation come up? Did he ask? If he asked, then he really should not have asked if he wasn't prepared to know what the answer was.
To say he loses respect for you, again, I'm sorry, but that' is that is just wrong and hurtful and not what someone who is "totally in love" says to another person. Your number is part of your past, not your present, and not your future, but your past, he needs to accept it, or move on from it. But to seemingly hold it over your head, is not a good start to a relationship, because it seems he'll always hold that number over your head. Have you asked him what disturbs him so much about your number -- Is it that you've ben with more people than he has? |
Yep, it's his problem. Ask him what the problem is, and tell him how it makes you feel when he talks that way. I don't know, to me that would sort of be a deal-breaker. That's not unconditional love.
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The past is the past.... if your bf cannot live with what has happened then he isn't going to be comfortable with you. Theres no reason why he should hold that against you. If he loves you, he'll get over it.
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What is your attitude towards your ex's? Are you still on semi-friendly terms with them and talk to them when you see them, or do you just wave, or do you ignore them completely? Perhaps if he percieves you as being nice to them, he then has a very hard time getting over the "she's sleeping with me and not with them" issue. Martel still has a hard time when I talk about things in my past. Sit down with your man, and really talk about this and how his attitude is making you feel. Perhaps he'll get better, perhaps not. But you need to communicate to him about it!
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You are a sum of your parts. Your parts include your previous relationships. Those previous relationships prepared you for him. Those previous relationships molded you into the person you are, the person he fell in love with. Personally, I believe he should walk up to those guys, and thank them for helping "make" the perfect woman for him. Does that make sense?
Why don't you ask him what an acceptable number would be? It would be very telling... |
Regardless of what the situation is you should not be made to feel like a whore. The past is in the past and just because you've had more then him as a partner doesn't mean you're a bad person, it doesn't mean you're not lovable and it certainly doesn't mean you're not worthy of respect. Talk to him about it, you're his girlfriend, he should love and respect you no matter what. He's probably not aware how hurtful he's being by saying these things. If he stands by his story then maybe you should look for a guy who loves YOU and is not so fixated and insecure about your past.
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Things to value in a partner - smart, funny, attractive, caring, honest, trustworthy.
If he is basing his "respect" on your past relationships, it is a battle you will never win in his eyes and one not worth even fighting. He is insecure and taking cheap shots at you to feel superior. Tell him to get his priorities straight, because his judging of you is boring and accomplishes nothing. If he thinks a virgin is what he needs, let him go to a convent or find a girl that will lie to him. His loss. "Fuck a rolling doughnut" :lol: That is just great... Sounds like he is in love with who he wants you to be - not the funny honest person you are. |
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Annie, things don't sound very healthy for you in this relationship. I'd seriously re-evaluate what you have there, and figure out what you really want. Do not move oceans for someone who does not love you unconditionally. That is just allowing yourself to be abused (even if it is verbally/emotionally, which is what it sounds like, that's quite serious).
And I believe it's a flying fuck at a rolling donut.... :lol: |
Oh, my God, Annie - this is so like my last ex it's not even funny (not that it would be anyway). The issue with the number of guys (nevermind how he freaked out when he found out I'd had some fun with a couple of girls), his insults, his manipulation, his insecurity...everything. We were together for 3 years and now have a child. His lack of respect did nothing but grow and it took me a long time to get over feeling like such a tramp and complete loser. I've slept with about the same number as you and he was insecure because of his ex's. It escalated to the point where I had to leave. Bad situation for me and even worse for my son. It kills me that my son won't have a respectful, loving (biological) father in his life - it's not how I was raised and not how I wanted to raise him. Anyway, it was scary leaving because I felt pretty worthless after all his bullshit, but you know what? Life goes on and you are the one in control of your own happiness.
Get out before you get in too deep. It hurts, but this man will never respect you. BIG HUGS. Feel free to PM me if you need to talk. |
This is a lot like the other thread going on, "in a relationship", which is about insecurity when your partner finds someone else attractive. I think the issue here is possession. He doesn't feel like you are entirely "his" because other guys can look at you and remember 'boinking' you, as you put it. He also fears you will cheat. (OOC, did you ever cheat? Or did you simply move from partner to partner quickly?)
This kind of insecurity is really hard for you to deal with because he will get defensive. Any suggestion that his insecurity is wrong just makes him feel more insecure. Any change is going to have to come from within himself. Unfortunately, it might take something serious for him to realize he's in the wrong here, being so possessive of you. You may need to flat-out tell him that you are not HIS piece of meat, and this is caveman behavior, and you will not allow him to insult you this way. |
On the other side of this issue, I know it can be a tough thing for a guy to deal with.
When a guy thinks about "other men who have had sex with my gf/wife/whatever in the past", our brains generally lock up at "other men who have had sex with my gf/wife/whatever" and don't get to the "in the past" part. It can be tough to separate it out. We know that the past is the past, and generally speaking try really hard not to let it bother us. I can't really speak for this particular dude, it sounds like you two have a lot of other things going on too if you're looking for ways to "get" him, thinking that the "backlash will be worth it". Sit down with him and talk to him and tell him you totally understand what the deal is with it. Tell him how you really feel about him; tell him what you told us, that this issue is starting to piss you off. Tell him it hurts your feelings and your self-esteem for him to rant about you like that. And quite honestly, if he replies that you SHOULD feel bad about it, tell him to take a hike. |
Your past is your past and it should be left alone. You didn't know him while you were with these other people and he shouldn't hold any of those actions against you. It's really him that has a problem here, not you. We all do things when we are younger only to move on later and realise that we've made mistakes, whether you have 1 or 10 previous partners, that is really YOUR business and should be left behind, as long as you are with him now and isn't seeing any of these people behind his back, he should learn to accept it and move forward. Try having a talk with him, tell him how you feel and how hurt you are that he is judging you by something that happened before you met him, everyone has a past, and it isn't fair that he can now lose respect for you because of something you did before even knowing him. Good luck with this.
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I know for a lot of guys it's all about the comparison. Despite the fact that you've chosen to be with him, all these guys can think about is how well they stack up against ex-boyfriends a.k.a. The Competition. With a small number the odds are pretty good, the larger that number gets the lower the odds and that makes them feel inadequate, which means they have to lash out to raise their self-esteem. That's not to say that you've slept with a lot of guys. I hope you understand that's not what I meant (Of all the women I know, you're in the average), but for some guys...Well, more than one or two is "a lot." It's his problem. Nothing you can say or do is ever going to change the way things are as it is certainly his deficiency to deal with. So, I guess it depends on how much you like the fellow what your course of action is. Is it worth putting up with the snide remarks and angry comments just to stay with this guy? |
if you're okay with his past and he's not okay with your past, it just means you are more emotionally developed than he is on this particular issue.
if you really care about him, try your best to help him through it. try to deflect things when he tries to get confrontational. I'm not saying you should roll over and take it from him when he's being a jerk, but at this point you either need to help him as best you can or tell him to get lost. |
Well, good luck in this relationship. However, if it doesn't work out, remember the lesson you learned here...DO NOT talk numbers when it comes to ex's.
My wife is experienced and so am I. Not porn star experienced but you know what I mean. This is an out of bounds topic and completely irrelevant to our present situation. I think she is smart, independent, funny and gorgeous. I am sure she feels the same about me. Our sex life is incredible and I would never compare her to an ex-girlfriend. This is one of those topics that a white lie will be necessary. I'm a guy and I don't know why but most guys are not comfortable knowing their girlfiriend is experieced even if they (the guy) slept with many women. I know, I know...it's totally screwed but that's the way it is. Any guy who has to know the number is very insecure and telling him the truth is not going to help. 3 is a good number....if you next guy has to know...use 3. Again, good luck to you. |
As long as you care for him more than the other guys you have been with there has to be a way to show that to him, this is where things get fucked up because you can't really use sex as that thing. You have to ask yourself, how valuable is sex to you? And if it is really important and an act of love than you have to tell him that you thought you were in love, or were but it didnt work and if you did sleep with a guy you didnt love it was prob not the best idea. And that when you have sex with him now, it's very special and he has to just accept that. Now if you don't value sex like that, then you have to be honest and just tell him that you don't put sex up on such a high pedestal. If that is the case than if you really care about this guy you have to find a way to show him you care about him more than any other guy you have been with, and he will have to accept that. Though I really think people should be more careful about who they sleep with and why.
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I know you love this guy but let's face it, he calls you a slut, makes snide comments, and is interfering with your friendships. He does not value or respect your experience, which is a way of not respecting you. He probably loves you back but if he cannot get over this I don't see any happy outcome for this scenario. Going on a rant about how you must feel shitty having other guys see you as a skank is not loving, accepting behavior. You sound really smart so I'm sure you see this, right? It would be one thing if he sat you down and respectfully asked that you not discuss your prior relationships because it made him uncomfortable. But the nasty, blaming behavior you're describing is probably something that will cause you a lot of hurt. Unless he can change, I'd seriously consider getting yourself out of the situation because if he's being like this now, when things are (presumably) going well between the two of you, what's he going to do when the road gets rocky? 99 times out of 100 "he can change" is a lie we tell ourselves because we don't want to face the painful truth in our relationships. Don't be one of those women.
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This is a situation I'd be clueless to handle... Like Annie's boyfriend I'd be troubled if my girlfriend had many past lovers that lived in the same town as we did and frequented the same bars and movie theaters as we did. But if her past lovers were in different cities (preferably on the other side of the country) and I had no chance of ever crossing paths with them I guess I'd be better able to handle it.
I'd never resort to calling my girlfriend a slut or a whore for having had more sexual partners than me if I was in Annie's boyfriend's shoes... but I'd be a liar if I said it wouldn't bother me the least bit. I've been cheated on twice in past relationships, so the thought of my girlfriend being on friendly terms with an ex would worry me because I'd be afraid she might decide to go have sex with them because I don't measure up to their skills in bed. Yeah yeah, I know it's a weak argument, but while I can control what I say and do I cannot control how I feel. |
I'm not excusing name calling or the current's basic immature behavior... however...
The question that I do have, is why or how does your current boyfriend know that these other guys have been your past lovers? Did you point them out to him? If so, why? There's honesty, and then there's rubbing the guys nose in it. A number is one thing, and irrelevant, provided you have been tested for STDs and such, but putting faces to those numbers is another story and not totally fair. |
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I agree with you on that one... If she's the one who pointed out that those guys are her former lovers then she rubbed it in his face and that's not cool. |
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I agree wholeheartedly... Some things are just better left unsaid because even if someone asks you how many people you've been with the truth is they don't really want to know, and in all honesty they don't need to know either. |
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perhaps i forgot to mention, we do live in a smallish city, run in packs with the same musical interests, political standings, etc. he knew already maybe 4 (yikes) of of my former lovers he knew from events that we frequent (right now i feel like smashing my head in) it sounds so bad. but none of them were mutual friends, and none of us hang out in the same posse. i did not point anyone out. come on peeps, im not a retard.
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I'm just asking questions here...
You say that you don't like the way he treats you in regards to your sexual past, which isn't that far a stretch from emotional abuse, but you like everything else.. What's the everything else that makes you put up with the name calling? Loving you isn't about giving you expensive presents, loving you is accepting you for who you are, and it doesn't sound like he's doing that. |
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I can't let this go... this is sounding like the stereotypical abusive relationship -- Oh baby I love you I love you I can't live without you...WHAM you are a slut.... Oh baby, I love you... T
Actions speak way louder than words... Love is more than just a simple I love you... You know you are being abused... Cycles can be broken... What has he said when you' ve told him how you feel when he talks about your past? |
Sorry Annie, gotta agree with Mal here. Even the part about "when it's good..." sounds a little obsessive to me. And the grilling for names is a bit weird (now you know why I guess - he's a little unbalanced on the issue). I think your guy has emotional issues and it's starting to look like a forest of red flags to me.
I too am considerably older than you, and have had a lot of partners...my boyfriend now reaps the benefits of my experience, both in terms of sexual ability and ability to maintain a relationship. And he appreciates that! I'm not saying I'm so great - that's not the point. It's just that an adult man is going to be with adult women, who are generally not inexperienced sheltered little things, and it's one thing he has to get used to and see the positive side. |
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No offense, Annie, but sounds to me like he's really good at playing with your emotions and confusing you just enough so that you don't wanna leave despite how badly things get when the shit hits the fan. Have you two considered getting couple's counseling together? This is an issue you either must resolve or else you must split up... in my opinion, that is. |
Ok, while I partially agree with those who say "its his problem", you obviously understand that it is partly your 'problem' too. I think the issue here is relationship security. I have a feeling that your partner believes that you are a very attractive person who has the attention of passers-by and feels threatened by it.
How can you and your partner increase your sense of relationship security? |
well I don't have to redflag the item since it's already been done for me.
as i read further and further down the thread... I see a bad codependent relationship. I cannot add more to what has been put to the topics said. Be you, and be happy with you. If someone isn't happy with you as you are right now, then they need to find another person to be with. It doesn't matter if he makes your toes curl or you see colors during orgasms, ultimately he's going to make you feel bad, its just a matter of time. |
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you draw the line where it affects your feelings. No one has the right to make you feel bad for anything you have done. If a person claims to love you, they accept your past. They don't necessarily have to like it, but they have to accept it because it's part of what made you the person you are. Under no condition shoudl they ever be allowed to throw your past in your face, that's called not fighting fair.
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Well that's hard when he keeps showing signs of progress and then slips back. He's got you on a string.
You could show him this thread, you know, it's not out of the question. Where I draw the line is when I stop feeling respected for who I am. I demand respect. Yes, I've had sex with a lot of men, and that doesn't make me a bad person or any lesser of a person - why should it? If someone has a problem with that, they are not the guy for me. Relationships aren't perfect, and my boyfriend doesn't always do and say things that make me feel great but I do always know that he respects me. |
this guy sounds like a real ass. Move on and find someone who likes you for what you are and doesnt judge you.
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This is an abusive relationship. He is emotionally abusing you. I'm sure we've all heard the story of the woman who's man beats her up every week, but he "really really loves her" cause he apologizes and brings her flowers the next day. Well, that's basically what he's doing. He talks down to you, criticizes you, then buys you expensive things (like the guitar).
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^ lindsey, thanks for that quote. It makes it very clear what I have thought for a while about my upbringing... my mom had quite serious emotional abuse issues (she works on them more now, but they are still there), with all of the above except for the last three, I guess.
The worst part is that I inherited so much of it, without even knowing... like the home was my amniotic sac and I couldn't help but absorb everything that came through my parents' system, for good or ill, since I was just a little kid most of the time. I have spent the last, oh, 5 years trying to get that shit out of my system and it STILL erupts in issues with my bf, who is incredibly patient and forgiving when I don't feel much like deserving it. Annie, I'm certainly not excusing your bf's reactions b/c of his family (EVERYONE has the responsibility to become a more healthy person and recognize their weaknesses, and work on them)... but just saying, some things are so deep under the skin, and some habits so ingrained, that you will never be able to change him. He has to want to do that himself, and he has to take the initiative to go to counseling and try to change *because* he cares about himself, and because he wants to be a better person for your relationship. If he is not doing that, he is not worth your energy investment right now, because he is basically a black hole that will suck you dry without even realizing it, if you allow that to happen. So, yes, at this point you ought to walk away. Sorry for the rambling, got a lot on my mind tonight obviously. EDIT: Maybe this should go in the Coming Together thread... but let's keep in mind that the man is not always the bad guy. In my opinion (obviously based on my experience) women can be exceptionally good at emotional abuse, almost moreso because they are socialized in school to manipulate subtly to get their way with friends, instead of being unladylike and have physical fights, as guys do. So both men and women abuse... let's keep it equal opportunity here (wry smile). |
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No, but realizing it IS a major step. If we had only addressed the OP and not looked at the underlying issue, we would not be a very good forum to post to, in my opinion. As you revealed more about the situation in the OP, we responded with more observations.
I did not mean to make you feel stupid. The answer may have become "obvious," but I think everyone here agrees that making the change is the most difficult thing we can imagine. Many of us have been in the same place as you, or we are there now. I do not think you are stupid, and neither does anyone else here as far as I know. We are here for you to help you make the change, if that is what you decide. |
It's somewhat ironic to read this post because recently I've faced a similar situation...
I did make the mistake, I guess, of asking my girlfriend this past weekend how many people she had sex with. She said "Seven," "Including me?" "Not including you." I asked and I got the honest answer. Why did I even want to know? Well, she started having sex at a very young age; I knew that and knew she had had sex with a number of people. Some of it is derived from the competitiveness, quite a bit of it was derived from the (pehaps false) belief that knowledge would be better than imagining/wondering myself. In the end, it was probably a number of factors. And what happened afterwards? Honestly, it bothered me. The first few days I was preoccupied with it quite a bit-- trust me, I did not want to think about it, but perhaps there is a dispensation to think about things like that, personal things, filling in details that are left out -- imagining them -- etc. For me, I think the greatest part of the problem is the dichotomy between her sexual experience (8 partners) and mine (she is my only partner). The difference in prior behavior raised all sorts of emotions and confusion for me, but while I might sometimes wish I was her first and only partner, I probably wish nearly (or just) as much that I had more partners -- not that I really want to have sex with anyone else, but so that sex would not be as much an emotional issue. But that's not the entire the story. I truly love this girl -- we've known each other for more than seven years, fell out of touch, got back in touch, and have been dating for just over two months. Already I feel more comfortable with her than I have with anyone in a long time; she is my best friend and is so much fun to be around. While the first few days may have bothered me significantly -- thinking about the number, or even just thinking about the conversation and her voice saying it -- I've been working to lessen it with time. That's ultimately what I want -- to know and confront those details rather than hide from them, taking it as a part of her, and letting any of the emotional turmoil and baggage dissipate as the days go by. Honestly, I searched the TF a day or two ago and read what some people said in another thread. I already knew it, but it still helps reading it from others, from people who aren't caught up in emotions, who aren't thinking upsetting thoughts. That helped me some. Last night my GF and I were talking and I apologized for asking; not so much apologizing because of my feelings, but for her feelings and how it might have made her feel. Another thing I've been doing is trying to keep things in perspective. Sure, she's had seven other partners while I've had no one else, but I know I'm not entirely spotless. She seriously dated each of them but one (a two-night fling, I guess) and didn't even mess around with anyone besides those seven, whereas I've fooled around with a couple girls who I didn't even know but for a few days. So in that perspective, perhaps her morals and behavior are a bit sounder than my own. I just need to get used to that thought-process and cement the fact that she is a different person than myself -- and no worse just because we acted differently than each other. What people have said -- prior partners made her the girl she has become, everything that happened is in the past, etc -- is all true. But as we all know, sometimes it's easier said than done, especially when trying to deal with the conflagration of emotions and thoughts. It truly doesn't matter whether it's 1, 8, 10, or 15 or more partners, but internalizing that can still be tough. I told her, shortly after she told me the number, that I would be pissed at myself to let such a good thing go merely because of her past. And I mean that. She is too great a girl to let go because of my emotions, any jealously, any confusion. So, I'm doing the best I can to make an effort not to let it bother me, so that I can be the person she deserves. I'm not perfect, but I think time will help me get used to it, and I thank the people on this board for their honest and insightful comments. I know that the thread has moved on to a little bit of a different direction, but I thought I'd offer my thoughts as I'm dealing with a similar issue but from a guy's side. Feel free to comment, as these are just my 2 cents...but I hope things work out for you annie. Simivin |
I didn't see you say how old you are anywhere. Not that it's of major importance, but if you're only 18 and you've slept with 10 people already (I know you said between 7 and 11), it might upset him that you've been so active so young.
Having said that, it's still his problem. He asked you, you told him and now he can't handle hearing what he asked to hear. And it's never going to change either. He should either accept it and move on or bugger off and date a nun, but constantly throwing it back in your face is not going to achieve anything. |
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yay! Good for you Annie! I'm glad you've been able to take that step in your life, and may your future relationships be happy and stable ones. :)
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Whoa, I haven't read all of the posts but this is a conversation I've had with a lot of people. I am doing ok too, and a good buddy of mine is obsessed with his 'number.' He will not sleep with girls (bj instead) just because of that. We argue because to me its not an issue, not at all. I've talked to my ex- about it and she thinks that it will become an issue for me when there is someone I really like who has a problem with it. I talked to a girl (well a few) that I know and they don't have a problem with it.
What I said to my ex and my buddy is that since I am a sexual person and sex/intimacy is very important to me that the girl I'm looking for will not have a problem with that. If she has a problem with how many people I have slept with she probably isn't the girl for me. One of the girls I am talking to said that if you really love/like the person it shouldn't matter. ok I've read it all now (ok mostly your last post) WHOA first of all congratulations on asserting yourself second of all fuck him and fuck everything hes about. No man should be aggressive like that towards a woman for any reason other than saving his own life. you had every right to slap him and I hope you broke his fucking nose. Blowing his nose on your stuff is just juvenile and petty, shows what hes really about. Third of all do not accept anyone ever that doesn't accept you as a whole. You are you and be proud of it, we're proud of you Its not something you can change, he (any he) can either accept it or you should find someone who likes all of you. Good luck! |
lovie? he aint got to know nothing.next time he asks you , tell him he should just be glad he's gettin' it now.you are with him now and not with any of those guys.and it's time for you to start playing hard ass now.i'm not saying that you should give him an ultimatum but just tell him that him posing these questions to you are irrelavant to YOUR relationship.let em ask you something?...
DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY GIRLS HE'S BEEN WITH? im sure you dont care, right?(or do you?) but the thing is, just plain and simple, the two of you are together.and trust me, this can really cause some relationship severing if he doesnt stop with the questions. just tell him "JUST BE GLAD YOU GETTIN' IT NOW!!! COS I AM!" |
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A) This is abuse. Your lover should not 'punish you' unless you're doing role-playing in the bedroom. B) Any guy with an open wallet could 'show affection' for you. This is tantamount to buying the wife flowers the day after he hits her. I bet he rubs this in too, this 'expensive present'., telling you it must mean he loves you. He has no right to comment on your past, you own it, not him. He is trying to put his insecurities on you. He is controlling who you talk to, where you go (if not now, you will see it coming soon). My first husband was like this too. I got grilled on a regular basis about all my orevious encounters. If I refused to indulge, he would demand and demand, this going on for hours, until I found I was defending myself. This was wrong, as I had done nothing to him. After we separarted, I saw it was a form of control. Now I refuse to divulge info to the men in my life on my past. I say I'm tested, and clean, and that better be good enough for him. I do no prying myself. Everyone has a past. This includes him. It may include activities out of the bedroom, but no one is perfect. Please, tell him this is unacceptable. He needs to work through this, and not take it out on you. This is his problem, I cannot repeat that enough. |
You just dodged the bullet Annie....Look back at the entire situation, and learn from it. But, mostly, be glad you are free of this boy.
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I'm not being critical, just pointing out my impression. I’m for never asking the question, and white lies as plan B. Just stating a number is too simplistic, and delving into the details is an emotional minefield. I think it takes “honesty in a relationship” just a step too far. I believe sex should be between two loving people, focused on each other – and knowing the numbers and/or details (of past lovers) can’t help but bring a few others into the picture. |
I’ve been the guy on the other side of this thread in the past. The girl I lost my virginity to was much more experienced then I was. We started out as good friends and the conversation came up and she gave me a number. Once we got together the conversation came up again and that number changed (lower actually). A couple of years later the number changed again (much higher this time). Yeah the number bothered me. But it bothered me much much more that she lied to me about it. Call it insecurity or what not but the bottom line is I don’t like being lied to. It turned into a big problem in my head and most of the 5 years we were together I didn’t really trust her. (I apparently had a good reason not to trust her since it came out that she slept with 2 of my so called “best friends” while we were together). Looking back I was very immature about the whole thing, but it turned out that my worst fears came true.
I don’t know. This experience has honestly made me use promiscuity and honesty as a gauge. I don’t want to be with someone who is going to lie to me. And I don’t want someone who is going to sleep around on me. I really wish I could change the way I think, but being human, I learn by experience. I simply won’t let myself be burned like that again. I have cut off a couple relationships that might have gone somewhere simply based on a little white lie early on or a high number of past sexual partners. I would take the time and really think if you guys need to be with each other. Maybe your not the right one for him and vise versa. There is someone for everyone out there, be picky, very picky. Don’t sell your self short. You don't need to pretend to be someone you are not to impress the person you want to be with. If s/he does not like you for who you are, then there is someone else right around the corner who will. You can be sure of that. |
Annie,
Some guys are over possessive meatheads, but it sounds like yours is rare: an insecure, over possessive intellectual. If you want to make him see the light on this you are not going to convince him by talking about how he is hurting your feelings, because as far as he sees it, he is still right. All his logical patterns of thought are adding up, and for you to say, "please stop, that hurts my feelings" just proves to him that there is no sound argument against how he thinks. So, you've got to show him one. First point you need address is quality, not quantity. He says because your number is between 7 and 11 that you're a skank, slut, etc. Have you explained to him that the guys you slept with aren't bad? That there is a difference between having sex, and making love? In today's age, women are realizing a a much greater degree of sexual independance. For him to claim that because you slept with over 7 guys, who sound to NOT to have been met-you-at-the-bar-never-saw-you-again one night stands, he has nothing to complain about. His argument that people will repeat in the future what they have done in the past is complete bullshit. Sure, some people are idiots and make the same mistakes over and over. Most take an experience, learn from it, and mature. To say that because you slept with 7+ guys over the past 5 years, means that you would do it over the next 5 years, is a completely illogical argument. Has he ever thought that perhaps the fact that you slept with other guys with no real attachment has led you to the conclusion that there is more to great sex than just great sex--that to making amazing love to a person is better than having an amazing fuck with them? Furthermore, you need to wake him the fuck up. He freaks out because you choose not to eat meat, thinking you're trying to impress a vegan friend? Ask him why he is so threatened by every single guy who lays eyes upon you. Ask him why he is so insecure with himself that he has to know everything about every guy you talk to. The fact of the matter is, he wants to be a control freak over this, and if he feels like hes not in charge of the situation and things are in your hands, he flips out. Well, part of relationships are trust. Why can't he trust that you're going to take care of the trust he's invested in you? Doesn't he realize how much you cherish that, and would never mishandle it? If he can't believe that, then how the hell can he say he's in love, and do all these things for you. He needs to let go, plain and simple. The world is too big and people are too numerous for him to control every single guy that comes into your life, he's got to come to the realization that either he trusts you enough to be faithful to him, or he doesn't. And just to play devil's advocate, what difference is there in sleeping with 3 people, or 7? They're both more than 1. If he says that it's because they were all steady relationships, ask him why that matters? It's called exploring your sexuality. There is a difference between looking to sex to make yourself feel fulfilled, and looking to explore who and what you're about when it comes to sex. Does he not see this distinction? How can he possibly argue that everyone who has had no strings attached sex with mature, still friends after the after partners, is a slut or whore? He needs to get some self esteem in himself and who he is about, so he can stop worrying about a better guy coming along to steal his girl all the time. Ask him to take a hard look at himself, because these problems stem from his massive insecurity complex and need to control everything because of that. Sit his bitch ass down homey. good luck |
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When a guy first starts to fall for you, the last thing he wants to know is how many people you had sex with or how.
Its a big mistake a lot of women make. Even early in the relationship its not a good thing to give that kind of info, as later it can still have an effect. Live and learn and yes there are good white lies if they make a person feel better and don't hurt them. |
A discussion about sexual history is very very important, going into actual numbers and names, shouldn't be....
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Sexual history would mean diseases... If I was talking to a man, i would want to know if he'd been intimate with another man.. (It wouldn't matter, but it's something I would want to know)
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Hmmm...sounds like many of you get off way too easy! My wife & I are both from the same small town. Her boyfriend of a bunch of years was a friend of mine, and he was the type to kiss & tell. I also knew two other guys she dated at different times.
I went out with one of her co-workers for years, she was a very sexual girl who loved to talk about it. So I know my wife has also heard lots of details of our little escapades. In the end, both of us are toghether, we're happier than we were ever before, and whatcha gonna do? If you dwell on it, it will drive you crazy, so you remind yourself that the two of you would not be together if everything hadn't played out exactly the way it did. I wouldn't give her up for anything. On top of that, we still live in the same town & run into each other's ex's regularly. I just smile when I see them knowing I got the girl... |
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Annie, I'm glad you decided to end it. It's always nice to hear things are getting better, especially when it comes to situations like this. I've been there :)
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am i the only guy who doesnt care about the number of guys my girlfriend would have?
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IMO, there is no such thing as truly unconditional love. It is fine to say that someone should love you for who you are unconditionally. This really only works if both people in the relationship are completely mature rational adults (which never happens as well all have our insecurities).
Instead a good relationship is based on how you treat each other and how you make each other feel. Tell me how long a relationship will survive if one person is loving unconditionally and the other person is treating the other badly (i.e. making them feel emotionally insecure). A good relationship depends on each person doing the little things that make the other feel better. This sounds so easy but can be very, very difficult. The reason? People don't communicate with each other. You are talking to him. He is either not hearing you or choosing to ignore it. It sounds to me like he has a big insecurity problem. Getting cheated on could be a good reason for that. That being said, your history is what made you who you are. People don't magically grow up to be a complete person without having a history of good and bad experiences. His only concern with your number of partners should be if you cheated on previous boyfriends while in a serious relationship (which could indicate a pattern of conduct that would stress him out due to his previous experience). If you just had the normal partners that everyone has (some long-term, maybe some very short-term) then what is his problem? Sure there are girls that are so insecure about themselves that they will sleep with anyone around. Usually they grow up, get secure with themselves and don't do it anymore. There are guys that are like that as well. They go out and sleep with any girl they can find to prove that they can do it. I was like that. I had infinitely more partners than you did prior to my 24th birthday when I seemed to finally grow up. My wife was a virgin, and I have still been her only partner. She has been my only partner since we met. Do yourself a favor and discuss this with him seriously. He needs a wakeup call on how bad this is bothering you. If he won't change, you owe it to yourself to get out. As many others have pointed out, this has the feel of a potentially abusive, controlling relationship. |
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well annie, prepare for more drama.....
this guy will not change. i've been in a slightly similar situation as you.. he was abusive emotionally and we always would break up and then get back together. i think this happened a total of three times and spanned a 10 month period (WAY too long, in my opinion). I think you have a heart, and you take him back because you want things to work out, and want to believe that they can. a few questions for you: Do you love him? Are you satisfied with your relationship? Are you more concerned with your relationship or the *ideal* of a good relationship? Are you more concerned with your boyfriend or the *ideal* of a good boyfriend? what I mean about ideals is: are you more concerned with ideals of what you think a good relationship/boyfriend is or the actual reality? when I was in my relationship, I found that I was fooling myself way too much, and I would try to rationalize his behaviour to the point where it would damage my self esteem and I felt like I *should* be punished or that things *were* my fault. but I held on to him anyway because I became attached and the idea of being in a good relationship I so badly wanted made me think I could just try to work things out and it would change.. he may realize his behaviors, but does he *want* to do anything about it? is he willing to change? simply stating what he did wrong isn't an incentive. learn to be empowered by saying no. that's it. |
Follow-up for me
Well, I realize this thread has been buried for a while, but I wanted to write anyway. I posted above that I had had problems, etc, with my girlfriend's past and that it was getting better. To some extent, it has, but to some extent, it still perpetuates. Let me elaborate.
We went on vacation for about a month this summer, which was overall a great experience, with some minor roadbumps. We had a couple conversations about her history, and she was trying to make it accessible to me, both of us thinking that the less questions/imaginings/anxiety I had, the easier it would be to deal with and the sooner it would go away. It helped, but it wasn't a wave of a magic wand. After some of these conversations, I tried not to bring it up anymore, but we had some difficult conversations later on (sometimes initiated by her asking what I was thinking, etc). A couple weeks ago, I was feeling pretty good, not thinking too much (even when meeting one of her past lovers). I left to take care of some things before classes start this fall, and unfortunately, my thinking has gotten worse again. I know and can admit that I think WAY too much and shouldn't be concerned about any of the things I am. I know I shouldn't ruminate so much; I know I shouldn't be concerned about her past, because she is with me now. The rationale side of me knows, but the emotional/pensive side of me doesn't really let me relax, and it stresses me out. I mean, it can range from her showing me something that she probably learned from one of her past lovers. Or it can be a comment she made ("sloppy seconds" or something) that I unfortunately tie back to her ("sloppy eighths") that just creates more anxiety for me. Or I'll think about other girls that I wished I had had sex with, so I wouldn't be thinking so much about my girlfriend's history now -- so that I would have the experience, or be on a similar plain and could just relax and enjoy the relationship. I know it's stupid -- you don't need to flame me for that. But I keep stressing myself out, and I know that if I just stopped thinking, that I would enjoy things -- the relationship and life -- tremendously. I just think far too much and I want to stop. I've talked with my mom about it to some extent, and I've considered going to a counseling center or something at the university, but I don't know. And I don't particularly want to talk to my gf, because I don't want to hurt her anymore or have any difficult conversations. I've thought that some of this is due to us being apart for the first time in about 2.5 months; or not having enough to do and dwelling on things; or not working out enough and staying in as good a shape as I want; or the big transition from my undergrad to grad school; or rushing into the relatinoship quickly, or having sex too quickly; or uncertainty about the exclusivity or long-term nature of our relationship; uncertainty about other girls I've had questions about, etc. I certainly think that if I would just settle my mind down, that I would be able to marry this girl, because she is a phenomenal person, but this anxiety makes me question lots of things. I've given her a key to my apartment, she's looking to buy a car to come visit me sometimes, so the stakes seem higher. Should I consider breaking off the relationship? I don't want to risk hurting her anymore by my own problems, and while I want to be there for her and make her happy, I'm not certain that I am making myself happy right now due to my over-thinking. Or should I just wait, give it more time, and chalk it up to making a mistake about asking too many personal/sexual details too early on and count on time to get past it? Advice on this would be greatly appreciated, because frankly, I'm tired of myself and my thinking right now. Thanks... Simivin PS: If you feel the need to flame me, fine, go ahead. But I agree with everyone on here that it is my fault and not hers; I'm just looking for things that I can do. Thanks. |
What is it about her sexual history that bothers you so much? The number? The type of people? Do you think she compares you to others? I think the most important thing is figuring out WHAT about it bothers you.
Consider how you would feel if she were as bothered by your history. What would you say to her? How would you rationalize the situation to her? I've put my husband in the opposite position - he is my first and only. I've asked him how that position makes him feel and he has said that he wonders about my naive sexual nature. Don't get me wrong. I love trying things and I am a very sexual person, but he wonders what I would have been like with a few notches on my belt. As for my feelings as only having had one man - I regret it to the depth of my core. But I digress, this isn't about me... ...figure out why you are bothered. Maybe you need reassurance from her or maybe you just need to reason yourself through it. Keep us posted. I'm very interested in your thoughts about it. |
Astrahl, thanks for the quick reply. In a nutshell...well, it is too conglomerated to fit in a nutshell because there are so many things/emotions that I have tied into it and associated it with. But here are some of the things that are going through my head, in no particular order.
I think about the number of people she has slept with and what they did -- sometimes things her and I do make me think about her doing things with them, sometimes far too explicitly for comfort, if that makes sense. I think about her thinking about her other lovers, wondering what kind of context it is in, etc. I think about her being younger and me being older, yet a reverse of sexual experience; part of me feels like my role is backwards since I was the virgin and she was not. I've often thought about the opportunities I had missed in the past (yet at the time those were decisions I made, I realize that), opportunities that 1) would have maybe prevented me from being so anxious and neurotic like I am now 2) would have given me a better perspective on things and 3) would have given me more sexual experiences (note: she said, when we first were discussing this months ago, that it was ok to have sex with someone else, to get that experience [just not to tell her] or we could do a threesome. However, I'm not entirely comfortable with either of those options, and the first one is too close to cheating for comfort). Thinking about missed opportunities leads me to thinking about other girls I know, and if things would have worked out with them, and if this is the best thing for me, etc. Or wondering what it would have been like to share my virginity with another virgin. Another aspect of this that -- perhaps -- is unique, is that I knew her 7 years ago. We liked each other then, but it had trailed off because I didn't write her again or call her again when I moved away. So I feel that if I had done things differently in the past, that it would have worked out better now -- either she wouldn't have had sex with so many people or we would have been each others first. And the way she's made it sound, she didn't even really understand the importance of sex and such until after she had lost her virginity (being in jr high and not having a lot of guidance from parents), so I wished I could have taken care of her, or that her parents were there for her, or that her bf at the time wouldn't have wanted it...etc. So I see it as me & her...then this time in between...then me & her again. And she gives me so much -- "I have given you everything" -- and I don't feel like I'm reciprocating well enough, or that it's too easy so I'm getting bored...? And then the other things: me graduating undergrad...going somewhere new...feeling more confident around girls as of the past year or two...thinking I want a long-term, marriage oriented relationship, but not sure because of the last point. Thinking I rushed into an exclusive relationship when I shouldn't have; rushing into sex too fast when I shouldn't have. Asking numbers and history when I thought I was comfortable with it, only to find that I wished I hadn't, but can't forget. As for thought-experiments in reverse, I have tried over and over, hoping that I could understand the perspective well enough that I wouldn't overthink anymore. Unfortunately, it hasn't helped completely and I still think. And the rational things that people have mentioned here -- I understand and I agree (in response to the one poster who quoted my earlier post) -- but it's hard to think rationally about something that I have become so emotional about. We've talked, like I said, but they have been so emotional for both of us that I hate doing that to her. And I would like to think reasoning would help (ironically, I am getting an MA in philosophy), but that's just the problem: I continually reason and think. Perhaps it is just being away from her that is making me think so much, but I did it -- albeit to a lesser extent -- when she was around, too. I've noticed some things about myself, however. First, with sexual relationship: I've had three relationships that have been sexually intimate (if not sex) probably too fast and the other two I ultimately ended after about a month or less, at least one of which after thinking a lot about two. Second, when I'm not busy, I get bored and think too much (different topics in the past, however). So, whew. That's a fair portion of what has been going through my head, at various times. And I try to break my trains of thought, but more often than not, I just end up thinking about it at a later time, often in the same day. Like you, Astrahl, I'm a very sexual person, too, so maybe that's why I think too much about so much...? Well, as neurotic as that is, there you go. Thanks, Simivin |
Oh, and I think about my own naiveite, too: that I'm such a new participant to sex, while my gf has been having sex for 5 years. That I'm almost an outsider or feel behind in things...
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Or I think about what past lovers would say or what they think...or if it will come to haunt us down the road -- I know the "past is the past", but sometimes it can come back.
Needless to say, as evident by my subsequent follow-on posts, there's a lot in my head and a lot on my chest. I'll try to refrain from posting any more ramblings... As for my gf, independent of all these thoughts (which is, again, my problem) she's a great girl. Smart, funny, a good family person and with a childhood conducive to my lifestyle. I enjoy my time with her and she is a wonderful adventure companion. Furthermore, with respect to the sex aspect, we are both of the same breed and like trying new things and experimenting, so I feel fulfilled with her in that way. I can step back and say that she is someone I could spend my life with, but unfortunately I keep getting so caught up in the trees that I miss the forest. |
Love is blinding. That's the beauty and the curse of it. We can all see your boyfriend for his ills much more than you can, but there are many things you know about him that we do not. My numbers as far as sex goes are low, but I'm only 19 so that doesn't matter. However, my numbers in relationships are high (7) compared to my lover's 1. This sometimes makes things harder, since most of my former exs are close friends of mine now, one being my best friend, as well as the lead singer of my band. My past girlfriend couldn't get past that, and I let her go. What you need to decide is, is he the type to filter all who you fraternize with? Will you lose good friends in the process? Despite the fact that you will be extremely close with anyone you love and marry, good friends are many times not worth sacrificing, as the difference between and lover and a best friend at most times in the younger age is just sex and some other romantics. I recommend that you Seriously consider the pressure he is putting you through, but don't necessarily dump him all too soon. Be sure about it.
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