I wither and fade
 

sirens running rampant again
I hear them everyday
I whisper "God speed"
where do they go?
is someone dying?
was there a robbery?
what building is burning?
the only way I can help
is to say the same words
I do hope God is with them
I don't like it when bad things happen
as I feel the tears welling up
and the anguish coming back
do I push it down for the thousandth time?
do I let the tears flow?
hoping the grief will leak out of me
but new pain always comes stalking
pinning me down into coldness
heart freezes and is stilled
as I tell myself the truth once more.....

I am nothing to you
your love reborn into hate

I've trapped myself in a self-made maze
not knowing where to turn
I fall on scraped knees
clawing the ground for release
crying and screaming
at the demons in my soul
their relentless red eyes
wicked smiles of lust for pain
they will not leave
and the worst part is.....

I was the one to let them in
with my selfish demands for more love
where was my patience?
I have to take the pain
lock it away and show no one
where do I find help?
all I find is more pain
with the passing of days
I wither and fade

Hey, that was great.

I loved this part:

and the worst part is.....

I was the one to let them in

This poem touches me deeply. I can relate because right now, I feel the same way. Thank you for sharing this with us.

Your writing is always sooo good, I really enjoy it. This line is so true:I am nothing to you
your love reborn into hate
Thanks for letting me read this