*Nikki's* Poetry...
 

Broken down life

Close your eyes this one last time
Remember how it feels to touch and to breathe
Remember my voice and how it feels to slide inside of me
Take me hard and take me fast
Take me slow and make it last
I like it when you go down inside my soul
I like to feel you slipping and barely letting go
I want to take you to the minute before this happened
Whenever it was that you realized that you couldn’t make me happy
You pull out in time and I lay there waiting….
The tears are lingering then slowly dripping
You tear me apart without knowing the pain
I hate you, I love you are one in the same
I wish I had never let me complicate you
I want you, I need you, but which part is the truth
I see him sitting on the end of my bed
I taste him in my mouth and I slowly swallow the regret
He’s kissing me now and I am letting him have me
Taking me deeper and deeper until
I look up again and now he is standing
Walking away and leaving me crying
Never understanding what he is leaving here dying
How I have to pick up the things that he left behind
Or maybe he was never here, and maybe I was blind
I watch him leaving and I know that needing
Isnt enough to bring him back to me
I take off the mask and brush my hair
I look in mirror and try not to stare
I don’t know this girl on the other side
Who is she, and what does she hide?
I touch her fingers, and trace her lips
And I can’t help but notice the sadness behind her eyes
I wish I could fix her broken down life

This one was a kick in the teeth the first time I read it and it still has that effect today.
Nikki, you have a talent that is well worth developing.
This poem is amazing and works on so many levels.
Thanks again for sharing.

My goodness. I'm speechless..... Oh my. I think I'm at a loss for words because not only can I relate, but it.. hmm. Very good.

being as tired as i am right now.....that moved me ...honestly...i have tears in my eyes ....you are talented ....straight from the soul

Nice.

0wnage!

Beautiful & sad
Very visual, the emotions portrayed are vivid.
And the flow of the work pulls you along, very smooth.

An incredible work, you have a talent.
And I'm not just saying that
I have admiration for this
Sincerely.

This is the best poem I've read on this board so far.
And I like your avatar.

That was a very moving poem.
It's got a very nice pace and ryhtem to it, and very visual.

The Darkest Lover
 

Your deepest desire, Your worst sin
You saw me today
You let me in
I am there standing in the shadows
I am the darkest corner of the room
I am grief like you have never felt
I am saddness, I am gloom
That little slice of silence that you just can't hear
This is me, I am fear
I am every doubt that you have inside
I give you nothing
I take it all for free, I am hate, I am greed
How can you search and never find
The yearning fire within this core
I am here to make you take
This life that you thought you loved more then me
Soon you will understand and soon you will see
There is nothing darker that you will ever need
The sun left just as I came walking
An image so distant the angels stopped talking
Their wings broke and they fell from the sky
The wind stopped wispering and telling it's lies
The end of time suddenly came and listened
The tears kept falling
The moonlight glistened
Just when you thought that I was gone
I come back haunting you
I was here all along
I am romance, I am dreams
I am the pain inside your screams
Never think you can be free
I am everywhere you will hope to be
I am anger, I am need
The indifference you will never understand
I am the razor cutting your hand
I am the one watching you bleed
I laugh as you slowly turn white
Watching you die
Turns me on like never before
Seeing the color drain from your skin
I suck it out, I am the sin
I bite the wound that will take your life
Draining you slowly of all of your spite
I walk away with the last of your heart beating
The love
The intensity
All retreating

A beautiful darkness...

I don't know if you meant this Nikki but I get the imagery of a soulless vampire,
but at the same time it's a deeper meaning of life and its more somber moments.

Maybe this is where the concept of "vampires" came from
as with anything from the past, it was a combination of
abstract ideas, tradition and local history & culture.

An entity that draws out your soul, your heart, your blood
in the blackest of night with illusionary romance but no compassion.
This represents the drain you feel by betrayals of life & people.
Your memories of warmth & promise, only to now have faded,
leaving your heart, your soul empty.

And like in the stories of these creatures, they are defeated by the light.
So meaning, you have to remember to hope & love,
in your heart, in your soul.
Feel your blood flowing, the life.
And with this you will defeat the darkness.

This is how I interpreted your compelling poem.
Very deep, excellent imagery

Thank you for sharing, I get a lot out of this.

Once given of my all, you betrayed me, you lied and words of depth you gave me, were as well.

My inner gift that I had presented to you were my loves truth to you, you stepped on it all, so why do I still think of you?

The times when my gift was given and share were real, but, now I release you and your vision from within me.

You will fade away and never again have my gift.
I was true, and and that truth you will never have again...The lies you spoke to me are now your lies, all alone.

You have pained me enough, now its your turn.

wow, i got caught up in that. a sense of pleasure and pain come together only to tear away life for those that come to close.

NIKKI... Your writing humbles me.
Thank you for sharing. :D

One Last Day
 

One Last Day

There were only seconds left in your eyes
I held you close
You watched me cry
I saw your soul so dimly burning
A light just about to fade
An unimaginable yearning
I knew the time had come to loose you
To give you up
To leave you here
Once again I look back and see
Years and years of memories
Times when I took every second we had
For granted
Your breath grows shallow
And soon it fades
Take me with you, steal this pain
I see the light mingling in the dark
I kiss your lips
Your touch is breaking me apart
One last time I beg you to feel
Please
I would give everything
To know what's real
You are not dying but leaving me still
A fate worse then death
An eternity alone
To think upon this
To wander the unknown
I take you in my arms and pull you close
I beg you to see what surrounds us both
Just barely holding on you manage a sigh
A gentle push
A forgotten lie
Mere moments left now until you leave
I hope you will understand
Why I cannot grieve
How can I be sad over nothing I have lost
At last
You are gone now
You've taken away
Feelings I'll never have
Words I'll never say
Tossing the dirt onto your grave
I give you
One last look
One last day

coming to know you through your words is all I have here.
your truth makes it worthwhile, just as it is.
Thanks Nikki...

:(

-wishing you the very best in happiness,

lebell

i haven't been that touched by someones words like that in a long time. that was deep and meaningful.

So often words can't touch
the heady mix that emotions bring
your expressions have reached
the pinnacle of true voice

thank you NiKKi

Struggling through the pains I always find it most difficult to pen my feelings. You have done a beautiful job guiding us through your emotions.
Keep writing NIKKI, it cleanses the heart and soul. :)

From a a bulb planted in the fall, in the spring it grabs a peek and waits for the warming glow of sunshine. The hardest of the cold earth in which it was planted, softens with time, and the bulbs becomes even more beauty than the picture. All it took was time, rays of warmths and a little nurturing...With hardness,darkness and ice, comes a new season of life.

Vanity
 

Vanity

Behind her I am so strong
You look at her and don't realize
That I am here
Hiding inside
You only see her beauty
While mine goes unclaimed
When all along it was me shining though
A face with no name
You look at me
You can't help but think desire
You don't stop to wonder at all
Who this woman is
What does she require
Her hair and skin so soft and tangible
She draws you closer with her charms
Until you feel her daggers
She can almost do no wrong
Nothing is ever to much
You beg
You yearn
Just to claim her touch
She uses her words to lure you in
She tells you everything you ever wanted to hear
She guides you with smiles
She saddens you with tears
Please she begs
I need you near
What if you lost her?
What would you do?
Would you take it all for granted
Knowing she lost you too?
Her touch a drug you can't live without
Her kiss a feeling
Intense beyond your control
She's giving in to not letting go
You see the outside
When inside she is dying
You tell her you love her
She knows
Your lying
You don't know enough to say
That word
You don't know what it means
To slowly
Loose control
She will take you there
Then she will let you go
It's late she says
So she's leaving
On your knees begging
Unbearable needing
For what is walking out that door
Isn't just a feeling
There is just one more thing she tires to tell you
A sound barely escaping her lips
You never quite catch it though
So
You remember her
Before you can forget
That way you can't say you have never had
Something so pure
Within your grasp
An Angel
A Devil
Whatever it is that
Just transpired
Within seconds though
The moment
Expires

One must be strong in manners not visible.

For only the giver of gifts strengths, one holds, can the receiver have your equal strengths to truly except and nurture them.

The Succubus, one must be wary of her seductions...

But with the true eye & kind ear
You can always see the to the heart & soul
through the illusions.

Those visions are always the most valuable.
Those experiences always unregrettable.

Sometimes you just have to walk that path.
Through the fog
And though might stumble, you get up, brush off, and move on with purpose.
To get through the illusion, to your true goal.

Because even though your sword might be dull, your intent is true
To defeat the tests along the way, to your true destination.

But the wise acknowledges the trips & challenges in the path,
And realizes that these had a purpose too.

Thank you for the poem
Beautiful as always.

At the beginning of this poem i thought that this was about a pregnant woman or talking from the perspective of woman's egg. I'm stil not sure but I think that is not what it means. Anyway, it did help to bring a sexual tension to the poem for me since sex is what produces such beings.

It is about someone letting go of a part of theirself that they didn't like.

That can be a hard thing to do, Nikki. Hard to first discover such a thing and then hard to remove it from our core personality.

Beautiful.. reads like a song to me. Thanks for sharing.

Breath-taking stuff! What can I say. I'm definately gonna read these a few more times.. A hundred times.

I loved it! Part of it did remind me of a vampire, but part of it spoke deeper and I can relate. It is beautifully written! I will definately come back to read it again.

Great stuff, printing this one out so I can read it more often.

Just where you begin
 

Just where you begin

Running my hands over your skin
Each movement you make
Drawing me in
Seeing you smile is worth
Every tear that I have cried
Having you here
Awakens
Every dream and desire
With your arms around me
I can do anything
With your love surrounding me
A rebirth begins
In such a short time
Our destiny has been planned
I wonder who is looking
Who is pulling the strings
Or is it just fate
That put you in my hands
Hearing your voice
I sigh just knowing
Kissing your lips
More then I care bare
Every second apart
Torture
All that I can spare
This is what I have been waiting
For so long to find
Images becoming reality
No longer defined
Take me with you
Wherever it is that you go
I will be your
Best friend
All that you know
I will give you the freedom
Anything you demand
From me there is nothing
You will ever have to hide
Take these words
Put them in your heart
Hear them spoken
Whenever
We are apart
Feel my lips
Lingering
Just where you begin
My lover
My partner
My friend

Beautiful as always.
The Rebirth - I just had mine too.
With the end there is always a new beginning.
Hope from nothing
Thank you for sharing.

Thank you NIKKI for sharing this. It sure gives a brighter look of tomorrow!

I'm a little emotional right now from watching a movie that got to me. Your poem is beautiful, I was in the moment, and tears welled up in my eyes. If you have someone dear to you, then I'm happy for you. I'm still waiting for my special someone. When I find her, trust me, I'll never let go.....

Very dark and imaginative like a demon grinning as it takes your soul...I like the imagery and choice of words. Very deep and beyond my writing skills.

My stomach dropped while I read this. Very provocative, intense, hardcore.I just don't have the words but yours had me.....

POWERFUL!!! I'm always captivated by your words, they are...delicious!

Second time around every bit as powerful as the first!
You've got what it takes sweetie! Keep it up! :D

Releasing the demons within.
A wonderful vision of truth.
Thanks Nikki :D

Beautiful and sad! So eloquently put that it makes me want to cry.

speechless....

The first work I've read on the Lit Board, and I'm probably quite spoiled now.

I don't know how you were feeling when you wrote this, but I certainly hope that getting it down on paper helped.

Very well done. I'll read anything and everything you post up here in the future.

At one time in my life those words I wrote were reality to me. That is where the intensity came from.

Now I am in a different palce emotionally. I still have a dark side lurking that remembers how this immense saddness felt.

It only comes out sometimes now.

Indifferent
 

Your parting shadow
Still falls across my floor
I still hear the silence
Knocking on the door
Footsteps traced backwards
Lead me to the beginning
You can't take your knife
Out of my back
Blood dripping
Emotions lingering
The room
Won't stop spinning
It's wedged in there so deeply
You seem to have lost track
Watching the trail
Of the drops coming down
Maybe then you'll see
What I knew all along
Your eyes following me
Even when your not here
Your voice haunts me
Every syllable
Instills fear
Your nails left marks
All across my back
Ribbons of flesh
Hanging off track
Little zig zags
Appear in the sky
You say they are clouds
Every word is a lie
Watching every move
Before I can make it
Stealing every breath
Before I can take it
Who are you to judge
And say what is right
Your perfection goes unnoticed
Yet you slaughter me with words
You think you are the only one
Who says things
Unheard
Your voice is all around me
I can still hear the ringing in my ears
Little bits of resentment
Falling down like tears
I can't take back the things that I did
Anymore then the future
Can be changed up ahead
It's best to move on
So
Forget I am even alive
I burned those bridges
Now your the one
Stuck on the other side

Serious pain Nikki.
Having been there I truely understand the feelings you have put into this.
Very strong work.
Thank you for putting a look at your soul on the board.
It's more personal than any picture.

For me I can write about anything using descriptions as if I was actually in the situation.

Sometimes this is not always the case.

I am the one looking in the window of the soul, taking notes and watching the emotion.

Stunning work NIKKI.
Reaching into the depths of you through your words.
Thank you for sharing.
I am humbled.

Our Lives Together
 

There are words that just won't come
No matter how I try to speak them
I can't find them inside this twisted heart
Black around the edges
Tender and soft
An angel perhaps
Killing the devil that hides
The miles that separate
The feelings and the soft side
Images burning in my eyes
Torture me
Take me
Places I never wanted to see
To late now to realize
Hours that we never spent
Moments that faded so fast
Time that somehow just went
Sitting on the edge of life
Remembering those little things
That pulled you through to the next day
Withering memories
The branches breaking in the wind
You used to climb that same tree
Now you sit beneath
Wondering how to get to the top again
Or if you ever will
Taking my hand inside of yours
You pull me to my feet
Looking over the days that have so quickly passed
I thank someone I don't really know
For leading me on this path
My heart breaking over things I just can't show
You pull me along side of you and kiss me so tenderly
I almost forgot for a second
This dream is not reality
Your up ahead there in the distance behind my eyes
Green and blues fading
Thoughts and dreams never realized
You bring me here and pull me close
Your arms surrounding
A tender ghost
Haunted I am by your lips and touch
Begging to need something I know this much
I close my eyes and give in to the feelings
Knowing that when I open them
The images will be fleeting
Just in case I forget what this is like
Promise me you will never know someone else this way
The thought of you giving her your love
Would kill me slowly every day
I never knew these feelings could take over my soul
I never knew such joy would be found
In letting something go
I am stepping back away from my fears
New ideas have replaced
Things I only conquered once with tears
Who knows the new person
Who is waiting on the other side
Who would have thought
She had so much pride
Lead me near and lead me far
I will follow you until I can walk no more
Until our final days come calling
Old and gray we will sit and stare
Looking at each other and just knowing
This love can surpass anything
Centuries will keep on turning
Decades of birth and death
This flame in our hearts though
Never to be put out
Never ending

Wow girl! You really placed the passion here. This kept me hanging on with every line.

"The branches breaking in the wind
You used to climb that same tree
Now you sit beneath
Wondering how to get to the top again
Or if you ever will"

Some how those words captured me and pulled me in.
Great work. :D

"I still hear the silence
knocking on the door"
I love that line - very moving work here and I thank you for sharing.

Very well done, Nikki.

your words force feelings, that's not an easy task for any writer. this is an excellent piece of work, thank you for sharing it.

Wow that was beautiful, so sad and it truly touched me.
Thanks.

That was beautiful, I wish for true happiness in your future. Thank you for sharing your beautiful and touching words of truth.

wow nice. Your very good.

What can I say that everyone else hasn't said? It was very touching and sad, and in a sense lost. Lost because you gave that last day and you have those memories to look back on even though you will never feel the same so now you don't know what to do or where to turn! So write it down and then things might get better, but not until you start living again.

eloquently put... and i couldn't agree more... *soft smile*... thanks for sharing a part of you Nikki...

It made me want to cry and I never cry.

I'm always amazed by writers who can make something very personal engaging to others, and judging by the response, i was not the only one sucked in to your words, Nikki.

Here's to less painful inspiration...

Excellent piece, nikki

Stranger
 

She knew she loved him the moment he touched her
Wait. She thought that about every man
She knew she would be letting him have her
Before he even got out of her car
She pulled him to her and teased him with her lips
A little taste perhaps
Of what she could do with her hips
Running her hands though his so soft hair
Kissing his neck and making him swear
He tried telling her no over and over
She tired letting him know he couldn't control her
Her hands were sliding down into his pants
He was loosing his patience with her persistence
Still she pulled up her dress and slid onto his lap
She smiled, as he gave no resistance
His hands were finding themselves on her tits
She was moaning softly and imaging him inside her
She pulled on his cock with her free hand
He was just a little wet on the end
It drove her crazy to know how much she turned him on
It made him angry realizing she was his for only this moment
She whispered "fuck" so softly he could barely hear it
Now he wouldn't be able to stop what was happening
As she pushed her panties aside and unzipped his pants
Kissing his lips and meeting his glance
She held her breath as she pushed him inside her
Letting it all go as he moved up and down
The leather seats were cold on her bare skin
He was taking advantage of her having him
He pulled on her little nipples with his teeth
Having him inside her just couldn't compare
She wanted badly to take him there
To make him feel like never before
To make him want to never leave her
Could the lust alone keep him here
Would he keep coming back and wanting more
Would she be content with just being his whore
Faster and fasted the heat was rising
She could feel him just about to loose control
He felt the warmth inside of her and knew he couldn't last much longer
Seconds passed and no release
She stopped moving and looked into his eyes
Caught in the moment of pleasure and pain
She realized she didn't even know his name

I read this three times. Awesome and sad at the same time.

damn

very well done, very well done indeed

Whoa. I sort of wonder how the guy feels...

The style works very well-it almost feels like a memory in how the words connect with out formality. Kudos for another great work.

lust from within, motioned movements, softness of an act so pure and natural. Does it really matter if a name is attached when two people are in the throngs of the moment? Maybe later when the needs have been satisfied, because you might want to do it again.

Excellent, delicious, sexy, appealing! Need I say more?
You have a wonderful way with words my friend! ;)

This got kinda lost among the threads here. I need to start writing again....when I can find it inside of me.

just start with a word, that's all it takes. Beautiful stuff you've got inside you :)

i would have to agree...the best stuff i have prolly read ever!!!

the last one was my favorite...maybe cause i wish it was me :confused:

nikki your AMAZING!!

Notice me...
You watch as I blend in
Remember me
As you linger in the past to blind to see
Take me in
My lost soul aches of this misery
Let me feel
What pain has robbed from me
I wish to know
The other side of this darkness
So let me go
Slip your hand through mine
Make me real
I am yet a glimmer in your eye
Taste these tears
Justify the reason they fall so far
Pass the time
With me a circle in your arms
Realize
The pain I try so hard to hide
Love me more
Then you ever thought you would know
Take me where
I always imagined I would go
Let me be
Something you will always need
Open your eyes
Notice me.....


I wrote this one quickly with not as much work as I usually put into them. I liked it just the same though.:)