Anxiousness to Excitment:
 

I have decided to that I will conquer certain aspects of my life that I feel unsatisfied with. One of them is forming positive relationships with beautiful woman.

I find that the main challange I face is taking action. When I am successful I turn my anxiousness to excitement and take action. I don't understand my emotions and have not found trying to be usefull, I don't want to stop feeling excited because it is what drives me to feel enthusiastic and passionate about what im doing but I need to learn ways to consistantly force myself to fight agianst my subconscious and do what I am uncomfortable with. This challenge in-myself applies to all aspects of my life. I want to force myself further then what I belive I can acheive, it means feeling anxious but remaining persistant, passionate, focused and bold. It is feeling alive to me.

I post this in the hopes that someone here can find flaw in my plan, help me grow or discuss what has worked in their own lives?

You sound like someone I know. Their biggest fear is always taking that first step. Good luck in your endeavors.

I might be way off here, but I've often found that it's my subconscious that get's things right most of the time and it's been my inability to trust it that's stopped me from acting. I'd say, listen to your subconscious and learn to trust it, he rest should come naturally.

The anxiousness comes from stopping yourself from doing what you want to do for fear of failure, it's your subconscious that wants these things, and knows how to get them. Give it a go at driving every once in a while. All you need to do is learn to be a confident passenger.

I see your point of veiw but that part of me labeled as the subconscious lead the way for too many years. I was unhappy, lazy, undisciplined and lacked motivation or inspiration. I have grown and changed since I began this existance so perhaps now I can place more trust their.

but why were you this way? who cares if its the subconscious or not. you were this way because you chose to be this way...now ask yourself WHY. you need to consciously be aware of your decission making process.

the more WHY's i asked the more i learned about myself. then i realized i had been chasing happiness and not just being happy.

That was part of what happened. I still question myself, at the time I lived that lifestyle because I didn't have focus. I knew I wanted to be successful but I hadn't yet found what that lifestlye was that I needed to create. Although I have not yet become the man I want to be, I accept myself with my strengths and weakness and know that I have the power to change all of this. I find alot of joy working towards my goals every day.