please move along
 

Ive gotten some feedback and now no longer wish to share my little story so please move along and sorry for wasting your time

if you realise your life is shit why not change it? my life was shit for a short time and im trying to make a complete turn around. stop sitting around and focusing on the things that are negative in your life. you really do need to think positive.

first off your young, so you have no worries about missing your youth. i think you really need to get your ass into whatever school you choose. that way you will be surrounded by others that share the same interest. school is always a great place to meet others...to get your ass out of that room.

Jam, sounds like it to me that you aren't living, you're just existing!

My advice is for you to take a hard look around and try to figure out exactly what the hell is going on, and more importantly, how the hell you're going to fix it!

Whose rules are you living by?
Whose dreams are you trying to fulfill?
Who are you trying to make happy?

You gotta get these answers, man.

Listen: You get one go around. Just one. Don't live anybody else's dream. Don't waste you time trying to live up to other's expectations. Every pioneer in every field chose to go against conventional wisdom and well-meant mentoring.

So choose, follow the herd, be safe, don't piss anyone off.

or

Pick your dreams, keep your own counsel, and spend the rest of your life trying to make your life into what you want it to be.


Good Luck!