depression

[noahfor]

Anyone here depressed. I mean really depressed. I'd like to talk about it. I'll post more about myself later when I have time.

[WarWagon]

Yes, I am. School, a horrible breakup, family members faced with life threatening illnesses, and possible surgery myself. I am in right now what has easily become the lowest point in my life to date. If you'd like to PM me, I'd be glad to talk about it further.

[One Sick Puppy]

Suggested read: Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse. If you don't already have an "inner sanctuary" where you can retreat to when you're feeling depressed, this book might give you inspiration.

[Mephex]

One word, and I can't stress this enough.

Cardio.

Seriously, get active.

I'll read more when you post more, and then I'll reply more

[ForgottenKnight]

I am clinically depressed, and am currently undergoing treatment for it. I was suicidal. I no longer have a problem opening admitting it or talking about it. If you wish to know more, just ask.

[skier]

Got out of depression a few weeks back.

The sun shines again.

I, as I know many others here, are more than willing to listen and possibly give advice if you need it.
I know that life can weigh you down, and it seems like when one bad thing happens, everything else seems to fall with it. But, the more strife you go through,
a) the more you grow as a human being, with more wisdom and strength before
b) the better life will be afterwards. Things always get better, and everything is only temporary.

It's on how you look at it- take it one day at a time and every day make a mental note of at least one positive thing that happened in that day. You will then notice a progress in the situation(s).

It's how I am handling our situation now. lots of big changes and decisions to be made, and it can really weigh me down, but I just have to remind myself the positive in it all, and soon we will be past our difficult times.

Best of wishes- if you need advice on remedies and things to help aleviate any stress or depression, feel free to PM me.

[Phaenx]

Depression sucks. I gave a girl I know a big bear-hug the other day and she almost cried. Told me she really needed that, and I can relate. During highschool I was very depressed, but I eventually figured that the more I was outwardly warm to people, the more outwardly warm people found their way to me. So when she told me how things were going I gave her a hug, which was something I could have used myself during that period in my life.

I'm awesome.

[Nimbletoe]

I got rejected from most every college in the state because of one semester screw up, so I have to stay home and go to community college. I hate my job, I hate working, all my friends are gone away to college, i'm having huge unfun health problems (one word: proctologist), and it just seems like the entire world is against me.

Depression is the worst thing in the world. I was doing fine, but when everything goes wrong its hard not to be depressed. Talking does help though, find someone you can trust to talk to. Also, see a doctor. Medication helps as well, and exercise as well. I'm going to try and make some goals for myself to make my life better.

[Schwan]

You want depressed? I am. I’m trying to deal with my problems, rather then taking medication, which I don’t think is a good way to solve anything. It’s like banging my head against the wall most of the time, though. The worst part is that not long ago I’ve realized most of my problems have been caused by myself. Ugh. I don’t feel like waking up in the morning.

[fernweh]

Mephex is right-- try just getting some excercise, and see if that works. Inactivity can cause the body's systems to stagnate a little bit, and this can bring on depressive feelings even if you don't have any really serious problems (e.g., death of a loved one)
For a couple months, I was so depressed I just couldn't leave bed. I'd go to work and class and spend the day on autopilot, and this led to a vicious cycle where I ended up spending nearly all of my free time sequestered in bed by myself, just sort of stewing in the raw pit of my stomach.
One day I ran about a block or so for the bus, and just that little bit of physical exertion made me feel better. So that night I ran from my front door all the way to the beach and back, about seven miles all together. I was so tired I could barely move when I got home. I fell asleep right away, and when I woke up the next morning I went running again. After a week or so, I was my old self again.
I know that something as simple as jogging won't be a miracle cure for everyone who's depressed, I'm just telling what worked for me.

[WarWagon]

Just as a follow up, I am now "officially" depressed. I was clinically diagnosed as having Major Depressive Disorder, as well as general anxiety disorder, and I've unfortunately got the scars on my legs to prove it

Edited for spelling.

[heccubusiv]

Being formally clinically depressed, exercise does really help, I had no luck with any medication from Zoloft to Fluoxotine. To get over it I relized what I needed to change my life and I took control and changed it. It was not easy and took a very long time but currently am doing a lot better. It just takes a new way of thinking and a lot of time

[noahfor]

Sorry, I forgot I created this post. I have been depressed for about a year. Alot of time I feel like I can't get up in the mornings, and then when I do I just feel like going back to sleep. I had to quit school, because I just didn't have it in me to do anything. Anything that takes any amount of effort feels like it is the equivalent of moving some huge boulder, not just physical effort I mean. The worst part is I have no idea why I'm depressed, so I don't know how to stop it. I have been on so many medications. None of them work, and I just can't stand being on them. Right now I'm in the process of quitting medication. I'd like to start running, but I'm having trouble starting anything. I don't really enjoy anything. I can't say I'm ever happy. Even like kissing my girlfriend and having sex stress me out, and feel like a chore, and I think my perception of stress has changed. Instead of the usual stress feeling it's like anguish. I don't have suicidal thoughts or thoughts of worthlessness. To me those are reactions to depression not depression itself, or essential symptoms of depressions, but to doctors they seem to be a measure of how bad one is feeling, so when I tell them I don't have those symptoms they think I'm not depressed. I told one doctor that I feel bad all the time and I don't want to get up in the morning, and she told me that I'm not depressed. I mean to everyone. I hate everyone. It sucks.

[QuasiMojo]

Everything seems so big, doesn't it?

well, "IT" ain't nothing but a thing. The mental magnifyer can be turned down a couple of notches by writing shit down.

[ronan]

I never get depressed, i have a very strong will power and i dont beleive in it... its all in the mind.

[noahfor]

Yea, it's all in the mind. It's a mental disorder. If you mean it's not a real problem you're wrong. One can't control it, especially in cases like mine where there is nothing to be depressed about and one is still depressed.

[ronan]

I beleive everything in your mind can be controlled... again will power.

[Yakk]

Originally posted by ronan
I beleive everything in your mind can be controlled... again will power.

Hey ronan, solve dy/dx = ky + c

Do it in your mind. Use willpower. Anything in your mind can be controlled, right?

Still, Noahfor, make a decision and stick with it for absolutely no reason. Decide to go running, not because I told you to, not because it will make you feel better, but because why not? Will it really be any different than lieing in bed and doing nothing?

So, go and run (or swim: swimming doesn't have impact/foot problems, heh). Won't make any difference, so why not?

[ronan]

Originally posted by Yakk
Hey ronan, solve dy/dx = ky + c

Do it in your mind. Use willpower. Anything in your mind can be controlled, right?

Never mind - I can't follow rules so my post has been edited.

[kurty[B]]

Originally posted by One Sick Puppy
Suggested read: Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse. If you don't already have an "inner sanctuary" where you can retreat to when you're feeling depressed, this book might give you inspiration.

When I get depressed, or simply down, I have two spots I like to go, one is about three miles up this canyon, and is on top of this very large rock overlooking the creek with a stream flowing down below.

The other is a beautiful ledge in Garden of the Gods Park that looks towards Pikes Peak. Just going to these places, and giving myself time to be alone and think without any distractions helps a lot.

[raeanna74]

I have dealt with some depression but it was a physical thing not brain chemical thing. I had gone through a stressful period with an abusive boyfriend and my health had suffered. My poor health combined with the stresses that I had gone through caused me some trouble. Once I got a handle on the health part of it and got a chance to talk through all the upset I had gone through, then I started to get past the depression.

My Dad has had trouble with depression big time. He has made repeated suicide attempts to the point where the psychiatric clinic started refusing him when the police brought him there and sent him to the hospital. I know you said that you don't have suicidal thoughts. I agree you can almost feel more down when you aren't thinking about suicide. When you have suicide on the mind you almost feel like there's a way 'out' so to speak. Not that it's a good choice to get out but that's the way I felt.

Has your Dr checked your health in certain ways? There are many physical problems that can cause depression. Thyroid, Anemia, Cronic fatigue, and so many more things that I don't even know of specifically. If they haven't checked any of those things and you've told them about your depression I would go elseware. My dr checked the physical right away.

Also Hubby had some mild depression that he dealt with a couple years ago. The dr started him on Zoloft without any problem. He wasn't suicidal either. I feel that depression should be handled before it gets to that point if possible. I really hope you can find another Dr who will take you seriously. Not be afraid to ask them to check your thyroid and hemoglobin. I know those to things. Make sure they look at all possibilities.

Here's a list of some medical reasons for depression. WebMD

[noahfor]

Thanks for the information. I've had my thyroid tested. I really hoped there was something wrong with it, but there wasn't. The worst part about depression is it makes me hate people I shouldn't hate for no reason. Just hearing people talk will piss me off, and then I get more depressed about being pissed at them. I hate how emotions are in control. If I had a choice I'd love everyone, but I can't. I just get so angry, and I just shrink my perception of people until they are nothing to me. Also, it feels like it'll never go away. I did manage to quit smoking somehow, in the last week. I went from a pack a day to no cigarettes for a week. Hopefully I'll be able to keep that up.

[raeanna74]

Quitting smoking can make a big difference on your mood. I hope you can hang in there and that things will get better because of it eventually.

Also have you had your iron checked? Anemia was what made my depression worse. That and malnutrition.

Have you tried taking any vitamin suppliments or multivitamins. Lack of certain B-vitamins tends to make me feel down and tired. Not necessarily depressed but that with other things could just make things worse if you are deficient in a few things.

[noahfor]

Today was horrible. I'm so mean to my girlfriend. I just minimize her into a single behavior, and then judge that behavior, and when I determine that it is dorky or "gay", as we kids say, I just take everything out on her. I'm an ego maniac, and I make myself feel better by standing on other people, and it sucks. I realize it and I can't do anything to stop it. Every time I hear anyone say anything I just turn myself into the judge. I think: "Who am I to judge anyone?" I know it and I still do it. I wish I could just be happy. I have nothing to feel bad about, and I'm just in so much pain. I made my girlfriend cry. I told her I hated her, and I don't, but I just have these feelings. Seeing her cry made me cry, and I just couldn't stop for hours. I had to come home. I don't know what I'm going to do.

[raeanna74]

You should find another Dr ASAP and have him refer you to counseling. Or find some counseling on your own. If this is bothering you then you don't need anyone else to tell you that something is wrong. You sound so frustrated. I know what you're saying. When I was gong through my depression I was so terribly mean to my mother and everyone else for that matter. It felt like everyone was out to get me even though I couldn't say why. I hope you can find the help you need soon.

[noahfor]

I really don't trust in counseling or doctors. I can't imagine talking to someone ever making me feel better, when I have nothing to feel bad about. I've been to therapy, and I hate it. I have a very hard time talking to people in person. I think running is my best bet, but right now my emotions are so turbulent because I'm quitting the medication and smoking. I had planned to quit at different times because I thought it might be too much at once, but quitting the meds gave me the strength to quit smoking I think. I need to wait until I level off.

[noahfor]

Thanks, by the way.

[WarWagon]

I too thought that seeing a psychiatrist wouldn't work, but thats because the first I went to wasn't right for me. The man I'm seeing now I can communicate very well with, and he referred me to some excellent counselors and MD's. But I'm still just starting a long road to recovery. Best of luck.

[dalnet22]

I'm extremely depressed right now, and only one thing can save me now. Unfortunately, that one thing resides in the heart of another, and she would rather I'd never met her. If you feel like telling me I'm crazy, there's no need since I've already been diagnosed as legally insane. If you still want to try and get me on the right track, I'll explain to you why that's no longer possible. The only thing keeping me alive is waiting for this person to respond to a letter I sent. Once I've gotten a chance to say goodbye, I'll never bother her or anyone ever again, at least in this lifetime.

[imp]

Sometimes I feel depressed... then I listen to music and it goes away! I think a well lit room with music is a great way to loosin up

[apeman]

Originally posted by noahfor
I really don't trust in counseling or doctors. I can't imagine talking to someone ever making me feel better, when I have nothing to feel bad about. I've been to therapy, and I hate it. I have a very hard time talking to people in person. I think running is my best bet, but right now my emotions are so turbulent because I'm quitting the medication and smoking. I had planned to quit at different times because I thought it might be too much at once, but quitting the meds gave me the strength to quit smoking I think. I need to wait until I level off.

I used to think there was no point talking to counsellors etc but THERE IS! DO IT! it can really help

[Amethyst]

My Dad has had trouble with depression big time. He has made repeated suicide attempts to the point where the psychiatric clinic started refusing him when the police brought him there and sent him to the hospital.

How could they refuse him?


I have been dealing with depression on and off since 1997. When I was first diagnosed with Chronic Pancreatitis. I have been on and off anti depressants. I went to a counselor a few years ago and she said to me your life does suck I don't know why you haven't killed yourself yet? After that I quit seeing her and haven't seen anyone since. My depression is very sparatic anything will bring it on. A few months ago I got really bad again and started back on an antidepressant but it isn't working. So, I feel like I am in the same boat. I hate getting up in the morning if I do it's to put the kids on the bus and then I go right back to sleep. I am just exhausted and everything is a chore. I try to exercise usually that will help but with the pain of my pancrease it is so hard. Today I got up and did some Yoga with my daughter and so far I feel pretty good but things can change. I just take things one day at a time.

[Xsas]

My life is supposedly going great. I got into the college I wanted to go to, got a scholarship there, and have a bunch of great friends. Money is never an issue for me, and my family is always there. But I'm depressed. Not to the point of suicidal. I've also started working out hardcore, so it's not lack of exercise. I think I get intimidated by a lot of people/friends. And also there is no girl in my life, yet I'm not ugly and a bunch of other girls want me, but I don't like them or they're too young (stupid high school.)

[Dungeon_Shade]

Oh yeah, I haven't had a girlfriend in my entire life, and I am 18. THAT leads to some serious depression...


But seriosly though. I do suffer from depression, and i know how much it sucks. I wouldn't want to wish depression on even my worst enemy, as cliche' as that is.

[marsfyre]

I have off days where I feel like i could be depressed fairly consistantly (once in a while I'll have a week or a month like that) on wich I usually can't do anything more than sleep alot and sit on the couch , can't even draw. I haven't had a g/f my entire life either(I'm 19) and i've always wanted one, but never considered myself in a good situation to have one. I'm not really sure if I have depression.. =|

[Rdr4evr]

Originally posted by dalnet22
I'm extremely depressed right now, and only one thing can save me now. Unfortunately, that one thing resides in the heart of another, and she would rather I'd never met her. If you feel like telling me I'm crazy, there's no need since I've already been diagnosed as legally insane. If you still want to try and get me on the right track, I'll explain to you why that's no longer possible. The only thing keeping me alive is waiting for this person to respond to a letter I sent. Once I've gotten a chance to say goodbye, I'll never bother her or anyone ever again, at least in this lifetime.

So your going to kill yourself? Is that what your trying to say?

[woOt?]

I am with nice guy. I was clinically depressed and feel suicidal on my worse days. I tried a few drugs and nothing worked until I used effexor. I've been on it for about a month or two. It works marvels for the depression and associated anxiety. Now that I feel as close to normal as possible I'm trying to do my best with it. I know how hard it is to get life moving when you feel depressed.

Cardio does help like someone said. Try to avoid obsessive compulsive behaviors, ( like the titty board for me) as it will only pull you down deeper. You're in the right place for help. Just don't sit around waiting to feel better, be proactive about it. REach out to people, read, go for walks, etc.

[woOt?]

Noahfor, I want to throw a big hug your way. Reading your post is like looking in the mirrow.

EVERYONE, LOOK FOR THIS BOOK.

"THE POWER OF NOW" I forget who the author is.

[Terminal Frost]

Go for a run. Go for a run to hurt yourself. When I feel really depressed I usually start to hate myself. I get a really low self image. I too can't stand hearing people talk or being around other people. For me, I'm lucky I guess, this only comes about every so often. But when it does, I run. I run as fast as I can untill I literally can't run anymore. It hurts, but it's a different kind of hurt. I like to think of it as a way of communicatiing to my own self. It's almost like a wake up call or something. It hurts, but at the same time it feels good. I know this all probably sounds pretty stupid, but that is only because it's a hard thing to put into words. I could never go for a run because it was good for me. I would only go because I felt incredibly worthless, depressed and bogged down. So I would do what I could to try and destroy myself in a way that the next day I would feel a lot better.