I'm wondering why I am so fixated on finding a beautiful, kind, and loving young woman to spend the rest of my life with, even though I am in the PRIME of my life and should be enjoying my freedom as a young, bright college student.

I'm also wondering why it seems that none of the kind, loving, and beautiful women I find attractive seem to notice me. :rolleyes:

Right now I'm thinking about stupid shit that I shouldn't be thinking about and second guessing myself :rolleyes:

I am wondering about why I stepped out to the front yard last night and had a pretend-cigarette. I'm not a smoker and I've never craved a cigarette before.

Right now I'm thinking how bad my fucking throat hurts and how bad it fucking hurts to swallow. I hate being sick. :(

I have nothing to do at work today, with the prospect of nothing to do tomorrow either. My supervisor seems cool with that, but I'm getting antsy.

On a related note: When, oh when will Lucifer get to post the next "Where am I in Canada" thread pic.

This gyro is too hot to eat with my hands, I hope it cools off soon so I can finish it before I have to go to class.

And I hope my voice comes back since it was crap at my lesson today and I have a recital in about a week!

I need to get up and get more coffee..
I need to figure out how to form a working relationship with someone who's proven time and again that they cannot be trusted and are now in a position with way to much power.
I need to scream... loudly...
I'm with Blackthorn and I really need to figure out how to enjoy life again...
I need the pain in my neck/upper back and shoulder to go away
I need need to get more rolaids - my bottle is quite empty
I need the pain behind my left eye to go away..
I need this freakin software to do what it's supposed to do...
I need to find a very tall building and jump...

........that i'm pretty much fucking fed up with fixing fucking fences.

and that i'm going to get another wobbly pop.......

fantasy about this redhead...

eyes are sore, i should probably sleep

but then i lost my mobile because i left it in a locker
and someone broke my locker to take it

now that's my gf's mobile. i need to pay her back.

or i should just go to sleep.
pee first. pee first. sleep~

what i wouldn't give to be able to sleep for more then 4 hours at one stretch...

*thoughts*

You know what's rude? Holding a meeting with 1/2 of the office staff in the middle of the room, and then ordering Pizza for only those participating. :|

/me buys fresnelly and his coworkers a big ole pizza (no ham and pineapple crap on said pizza though...)


I'm tired...
I have a headache
I want to be anywhere but where i am right now...

I'm thinking about...

1) if I am going to practice juggling later tonight (I just taught myself last night-)
2) where (or rather when, it's end of semester, i.e. papers and papers and papers, you know) I can actually get juggling balls (I taught myself with my own stinking socks)
3) what if I screw up my audition to officially major in theatre on 18th april (that I have always been thinking about)

that's pretty much it...

Now I'm thinking about how I thought this exact same thing last week. I should've gone to the doctor. But then I felt better, so I didn't go. Felt bad again this week and woke up this morning with my throat almost swollen shut. Finally went to the doctor to find out that I've got some crazy bacterial infection. Now, I'm thinking about how I really need insurance because one doctor's visit should never cost that much.

My left tonsil hurts, and I dont' want to go to work in the morning :|

keep my freakin' head down..