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newlyable · 05-27-2006, 10:31 PM

Have you ever just felt angry for no reason? Well I do alot, and not just angry but depressed.. I have never acted like a kid, I never went to parties in high-school, or rode around town.anything. No after graduating I have decided to move in with the one person that I fell in love with because he wasnt like the other sterotypical assholes that live in my home town. He's brilliant, sweet, funny, he's just an all around great guy, or so I thought. Now we've moved intogether and all we do is fight, about everything. It's like i'm always scared he's judging me, I get mad when he wants to watch sports with his friends, play video games, etc.. It's very frustrating for me, I've also never really been away from home, and leaving my mom has about killed me. I have two younger siblings, one of which my 3year old lil brother who wont even kiss me goodbye, because he's mad that I moved out... This is all just becoming to much for me to handle. I don't know what to do.. I have never really had a wonderful life, I was abused sexually and phyically as a small child and I think that has effected me in many ways. In school I was tortured by the other kids, because I would not follow their lil clicks. I think this might also have something to do with my self-conciousness..sp? I just feel so over whelmed right now and really just need to hear an outsiders view point..

Sorry that this jumps back and forth, but I have so much going on in my head that it's hard for me to even put it all together..

savvypup · 05-27-2006, 10:54 PM

Newlyable, sounds like you just needed someone to cling to and make you feel protected, but kinda sounds like you've chosen the wrong road. One needs to grow as a person before they can give themselves (so to speak) to another. You need to find yourself and where you want to go ....... all without the influence of others. My family means the world to me and I couldn't possibly imagine moving too far from them. But it's your life. Do what's right for you. Are you both feeling suffocated? Did you ever have counselling for the abuse as you've obviously got some issues that need to be talked over.

05-27-2006, 10:31 PM	#1 (permalink)
newlyable Upright	Advice Please!! Have you ever just felt angry for no reason? Well I do alot, and not just angry but depressed.. I have never acted like a kid, I never went to parties in high-school, or rode around town.anything. No after graduating I have decided to move in with the one person that I fell in love with because he wasnt like the other sterotypical assholes that live in my home town. He's brilliant, sweet, funny, he's just an all around great guy, or so I thought. Now we've moved intogether and all we do is fight, about everything. It's like i'm always scared he's judging me, I get mad when he wants to watch sports with his friends, play video games, etc.. It's very frustrating for me, I've also never really been away from home, and leaving my mom has about killed me. I have two younger siblings, one of which my 3year old lil brother who wont even kiss me goodbye, because he's mad that I moved out... This is all just becoming to much for me to handle. I don't know what to do.. I have never really had a wonderful life, I was abused sexually and phyically as a small child and I think that has effected me in many ways. In school I was tortured by the other kids, because I would not follow their lil clicks. I think this might also have something to do with my self-conciousness..sp? I just feel so over whelmed right now and really just need to hear an outsiders view point.. Sorry that this jumps back and forth, but I have so much going on in my head that it's hard for me to even put it all together..

05-27-2006, 10:54 PM	#2 (permalink)
savvypup Crazy Location: Want to run away? Follow the light	Newlyable, sounds like you just needed someone to cling to and make you feel protected, but kinda sounds like you've chosen the wrong road. One needs to grow as a person before they can give themselves (so to speak) to another. You need to find yourself and where you want to go ....... all without the influence of others. My family means the world to me and I couldn't possibly imagine moving too far from them. But it's your life. Do what's right for you. Are you both feeling suffocated? Did you ever have counselling for the abuse as you've obviously got some issues that need to be talked over. __________________ ciao bella!