Average_Joe

Tex, if only you had never joined the scouts, you would have saved some people a lot of grief!

oracle2380

Being a quiet introvert, I have a lot more regrets in the "What if?" category than in reality. Almost all of those involve a girl I either never got to know, or never tried to take to the more than friends level.

As far as actual 'guilt' for something I've done...

I have two major regrets in my life. Each of which can be blamed on my penis, the curmudgeon. The first one involves my first real girlfriend, and in hindsight is definitely the result of immaturity and inexperience. Basically my junior year of high school I started going out w/ J. We had a fairly good relationship, saw everything in pretty much the same way. I enjoyed having her around and she obviously adored me. About seven or eight months into it, things started to get pretty intense. We went to prom together, had a good time. On the way home she told me that she loved me and never wanted anyone else. This more than just freaked me out a little, so I decided to break it off before it got more serious. The problem was that I never really got around to it. Well another couple months went by with me pretty much just ignoring her every time she said those three words. On her birthday, she called me to see when I was coming over. Basically it was a normal conversation until the end when I said “I don't think I'm going to make it, I think we should break up." I hung up the phone, and didn't talk to her for the rest of the school year. When I finally got my head out of my ass and realized that I was an idiot she was dating someone else, who she eventually married.

My second regret is much simpler to tell. I basically slept with one of my best friends on again/off again girl friend/fiancé. It caused a lot of friction in the friendship for a while but he forgave me, married a different girl, and she is no longer around.

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"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference." - Robert Frost

clavus

* Content removed. What was I THINKING?! *

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SaltPork

Boy, you guys are all a bunch of jerks.

Seriously, though, I think the worst thing I ever did was trying to drown someone. I was picked on furiously by this group of kids and I did my best to ignore it because I was the new kid in town and didn't want to become an outcast. I lived with it all year long. When summer came around, we were at the town pond and this kid who was considered to be a scary bully came up to me and got in my face. During school it was one thing, but he wasn't going to ruin my summer. Well one thing led to another and he shoved me and something in me snapped. I punched him straight on in the face, breaking his nose. He stumbled back and fell into the water. I pulled him up by his shorts and proceeded to beat the hell out of him and then forced his head under the water. My mom, the lifeguards and some of the other parents finally pulled me off of him. If they hadn't gotten to me, I would have killed him. I didn't really have any problems after that in school. I did scare the crap out of everyone that was there and my mom looked at me differently for a while after that.

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It was like that when I got here....I swear.

stevo

I always like the bully-revenge stories. Nice.

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"If I am such a genius why am I drunk, lost in the desert, with a bullet in my ass?" -Otto Mannkusser

Blackthorn

Bless me Father for I have sinned and I am truly sorry for my most egregious mistake.

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raeanna74

I think my worst offenses are actually against myself. I've never fit in and find it hard to stand up for myself. I'll readily defend a loved one but to speak up against some offence against myself takes a while for me to do. I have to be thoroughly pissed off.

Once in 6th grade, I was always among the misfits crowd and constantly picked on by a girl named Wendy. I still find the name brings to mind the picture of one of those snobbish in chick click leaders that you'll see among kids. She was being a real brat to me one day, during all school chess competition that the teachers named her record wins and losses. I won a game and she put me down as lost. She got her chick croonies to lie with her. So, during recess, she was going up the slide, I ran to climb right behind her, shoved her off, and she got a bloody nose and went home early. For some reason she never told on me. I think I'd have felt more vindicated if she had for some reason.

Other thing I did was when I was a teen, my parents were yelling at me for wasting my money. My Dad has gone through 2 bankrupties with his business because he does not know how to write binding contracts and gets screwed over by his customers. He's a contractor. I turned and yelled at him "What makes you think you know how to advise me with money if you can't keep from going into bankruptsy more than once." The look he gave me, I'll never forget it, was a look of pure pain. No matter how much I apologized I could not get that look out of my mind.

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My Karma just ran over your Dogma.

dd3953

i was in 8th grade art class. we were sitting at those big tables with 8 people sitting at them. the project: draw a face using the example given. i had just divided the face into four & had started on the eyes when the girl behind me got up to sharpen her pencil. i didn't care, but in the process she bumped my chair, causing my pencil to make an unwanted line across the forehead. i didn't say anything until she did it the second time, this time giggling as i sighed. so i asked her to be careful & explained the problem. she did it again. again i asked her to watch what she was doing. & she did it again. this time i told her i was tired of her messing up my picture & if she did it again i was going to cut her ponytail off. she giggled. 2 minutes later she got up, yet again, to sharpen her pencil, this time when she bumped me she did it so hard i was pushed into the table. i said nothing. after she sat back down, i picked up the pair of scissors at stood behind her. her ponytail was about 5 inched long, i took the scissors to her head & cut about 6?7ths of it down to less than a inch, reached my hand over her head & dropped the ponytail in front of her. i have never, to this day, heard someone scream that loud.

i was suspended from school for a week & when i got back all of her hair was that short, i guess her parents thought it would best to cut the rest off as well.

at the time all i could think was "i told her i would do it" buy now i feel sooo bad about it. if i could remember her name or something i would send her a note saying sorry or something.

& that was the worst thing i have ever done.

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Ace_O_Spades

I think I'll keep all THOSE skeletons safely locked away in the closet.

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Feh.

dd3953

ahhh, where's the fun in that

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Sugarmouse

I have not cared for past pets enough,when I was yuonger...resuliting in their deaths none-intentional and I will not go into detail,because my nerves are bad right now and it will make me cry,frankly!
the worst thign i have done is end up inte situation I am in now! its a long long story,bits I have forgotten and bits I do not understand,and I wouldnot know where to start!
but basicaly I have caused a lot of problems,alot of hurt and a lot of confusion for myslef and others,when what I meant to do was entirely the opposite..it just got out of my control.I am no longer a balanced individual and have gone from a confident bubbly person into a closed up nervous depressed one...but i guess thats more the worst thing that happend to me, than the worst thing i have done..it wasnt something i meant to do.
also,when i was young me and myfather had a rough relationship.I was scaredof him and he was hurt by me and things I did.he eventually decided to commit suicide because of me.he never did ,but perhaps making him feel likehe would is enough to warrant the worst thing I have ever done.

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ChangingMyName

I've since put it out of my mind but it KILLED me for the longest time. I was in a restaurant with my boyfriend. A couple with a young girl (maybe 5?) was seated next to us. The first thing I noticed was that the couple were both dark haired with dark complexions & the little girl was blonde & so pale, she was almost translucent. I thought they might be her Aunt & Uncle (they couldn't have been her parents unless she was adopted). During our meal we couldn't help but overhear their conversation (& I use the term loosely). I can't remember the entire thing anymore (thankfully) but I know the man did most of the talking, the woman looking at the little girl with that "are you listening" kind of look on her face. All I can recall now is a comment about her parents either not going to help her or not coming for her and another about how he would bite her fingers off (for what I don't remember). This was NOT in the teasing "I got your nose sorta way." We spent the entire time listening (to the point where you hold your breath so you can hear everything), with our eyes darting back & forth at each other. When we left I was near tears and very close to panicing. We talked about calling the police but did nothing. To this day I don't know what was going on there but I knew something was VERY wrong. If these people were her guardians, they should not have been. As dramatic as it sounds, they very well could have been her kidnappers. I felt guilty about this for a LONG time. I feel guilty about it now.

JamesB

Hmm .. worst thing huh?

The worst thing I did was take love for granted.

I spent a few years in a relationship with a girl who absolutely loved me and I did very little to reciprocate. Thank god she dumped me (after I started truly loving her) because it shaped who I am now.

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Toaster126

Wow man... while "not nice", I certainly wouldn't say that warning someone 5 times before doing something is so bad it gets on this list. Unless you are a fucking saint, in which case I salute you.

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"The question isn't who is going to let me, it's who is going to stop me." (Ayn Rand)
"The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers." (M. Scott Peck)

dd3953

don't get me wrong, i have done some pretty fucked up shit, I look at all of it on the same level of worst-ness, me picking that one as the worst was mostly because people who know me say that's the worst. liking losing all your hair is worst than being sent to the hospital or having some chick punch you in face with one arm while teacher is holding her other.

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ngdawg

I must have missed this, but damn that last line cracked me up

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Don't blame me. I didn't vote for either of'em.

little_tippler

I can't think of anything truly awful or terrible that I have done in the past...and that's a good thing.

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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.

Fernando Pessoa, 1918

Sun Tzu

"There are some things in life. . . aman jest has t keept himself" John Wayne

One thing I will share is a Christmas Holiday I was spending with my mother while I was on leave from the military. At the time I was stationed at a Naval Hospital Emergency Room as a paramedic. Prior to going home something bad happened which days later I used to drive her brand new car out on a Friday night. I went to a bar with a friend and proceeded to get completely intoxicated. I had no business driving after the first hour there. 4 hours later as I was stumbling to the car I noticed an Ambulance parked behind the bar. For reasons I will never understand I walked over to check the door and it was unlocked in the back.

I proceeded to started grabbing medical equipment as my friend watched in horror. I slurred out "I’m grabbing stuff for the morning hangover, give me a hand" he just barked something to the effect of getting out of there. After 3 or 4 trips I finally started the car and was going to pull away, when one of the EMTs started knocking on my window telling me to shut off my engine. I flipped him the bird and took off.

My friend shouted go left, and I went right. . .right over a hill. . . caught air. . . and right in to a canal of dark cold water. The car filled instantly and we were sitting in water that was almost completely over us. We had to hold our faces up to breath. The headlights were still on and the radio was still playing underwater.

I had a combination of irrational thoughts. I was thinking about that scene in Risky Business combined with Jeff Specoli from Fast Times at Ridgemont High saying "My dad has this awesome set of tools, I can fix it". I had it in my mind I could get it to a tow yard, and have it fixed before having to tell my mother I just killed her car, Merry Christmas.

Well the outcome was as expected I was charged with criminal trespassing, grand theft, DUI, assault (I don’t remember hitting an EMT) I think that charge was bullshit, and criminal damage. For reasons I won’t go into, all charges were dropped. The lucky thing is that I didn’t kill anyone. The hardest part of the whole incident was sitting in the back of the police car watching my mom look at her car in the canal, and have her come up to me and say "don’t worry honey we will take care of this".

Suffice to say that was the last time I drank alcohol.

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Cynthetiq

I've got a list that's over 335 lines long of some pretty bad stuff, of that which is the worst?

there's lots there, breaking promises, stealing, backstabbing, self seeking, self centered, lying, cheating...

just list the 7 deadly sins, Pride, Anger, Greed, Gluttony, Lust, Envy, Sloth .... and I can put up something for each one...

the worst thing I have ever done was lie to myself that I didn't do any of the above.

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longbough

Mine was an act of vengance. I'm not proud of it but it's in my past ...

I was about 22 years old ... and found out that my gf was cheating on me. I never confront her with it, but I was simply amazed that she acted as if everything was fine in our relationship. She would cancel dates with me at the last minute to see this other guy. She went out of her way to keep me in "play" even though I gave her a couple of opportunities to break up. We never even fought and she was always showering me with affection ... but she still saw this other guy at least twice per week.

I didn't tell her what I knew. I found out only because one of her best friends warned me one day since she happened to be an even better friend of mine.

OK. What follows is embarrasing to admit since it represents my low point in pettiness and malice. But I was young and jealous ... and pissed.

I obtained my ex-gf's remote answering machine code (I won't say how but it's surprisingly easy on some phones) and started listening to her messages when I she was at work (we worked at the same place). I learned a lot about the other guy. I gathered information for over a month (while she was still "my gf") and pretended to be the "stupid, clueless" bf.

BTW I also discovered that her platonic work-buddy (who was my work colleague) was actually her "fuck-buddy." Evidently she also liked to tell him intimate details about us. Now I knew why he always had a smarmy attitude towards me when I started dating her.

The new guy she was seeing was a wealthy married man. I engineered a series "events" that got the other guy to mistrust her, loathe her and finally "dump" her - without her knowing why. She came to work in tears and told me she was sad because an "old friend" was mad at her.

Of course she wasn't cancelling dates with me anymore ... this time I was the one who cancelled and eventually ignored her entirely without confronting her at all or giving her a reason other than I had just lost interest.

I wasn't mad at my colleague, the smarmy "fuck buddy." He was never my friend so I didn't really feel betrayed by him. I'd just smile back at him at work.

I'm ashamed of that act because it was a petty, malicious thing to do. Today I'd just walk away without looking back. Life is too short to play stupid games like that.

liar

jth

I would say the worst thing I ever did to someone was not such a horrible thing to do since I felt it was the right response. However it was probably some major over reaction on my part.

I was at a party and this guy was acting an ass to just about everyone especially his Girl whom he was very beligerant to. Subsequently I knew her fairly well from school as we shared some classes and we were on a pretty good conversational relationship. We quized each other on stuff time to time because apparently I'm non-threatening... well... the proof is in the pudding.

Anyway, he was being a complete ass to everyone and as the night progressed he got drunker and drunker. Eventually he decided he wanted some loving and she wasn't about to give him anything. He tried to force the issue... I interjected on her behalf... a fight insued.... he spent a few days in the hospital after I threw him through the window of the front of the home the party was taking place in.

I regret hurting him as badly as I did. However I justify it in that I might have stoped a rape in the process. Luckily there were no charges pressed and I offered to pay to repair the window (which was expensive... ack).

That was one of only two physical conflicts I have been in, the other was self defense as someone tried to rob me. But that one I acted on my own, I never want to hurt anyone but that one I felt had to happen.

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Ace_O_Spades

Having people respect you

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Feh.

little_tippler

Haha love the smiley. But seriously, however weird it may sound, I was thinking and I think my worst thing is pretty harmless compared to some people's...in fact I couldn't pinpoint a particular one that stuck out...call me what you want but that's how I feel.

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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.

Fernando Pessoa, 1918

longbough

Thanks for not taking offense - I was joking, of course.
It was just a good excuse for me to use that smiley.

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"I do believe that, where there is only a choice between cowardice and violence, I would advise violence. Thus when my eldest son asked me what he should have done, had he been present when I was almost fatally assaulted in 1908, whether he should have run away and seen me killed or whether he should have used his physical force which he could and wanted to use, and defended me, I told him that it was his duty to defend me even by using violence." - Mahatma Ghandi