If I have learned anything, its that defining myself has be to be about ME. Not about my relationships with other people, or other expectations. Me. ME ME ME ME ME. It sounds extremely selfish, but you know what? I'm the one that has to live with the consequences, good or bad.
I was pretty surprised about some of the choices I made when I was not factoring in other people. Circumstances are a constant - they will always change. I tried in the past to define myself by a job, career, relationship status. They all failed, for one reason or another.
Now ... I at least have healthy expectations of what is required out my living sitations to help me along in the direction I want to go. For me, this means a job that I can leave at work, a place to live where I can see from the ground to the sky in one interrupted break on daily basis, and an environment that stimulates me creatively - for me, this is nature and all its related elements.
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Calling from deep in the heart, from where the eyes can't see and the ears can't hear, from where the mountain trails end and only love can go... ~~~ Three Rivers Hare Krishna
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