Kazic

Not really with the girl that I have trust issues with. I want to be more than anything.
I am taken with her and can't help how I feel about her.
She on the other hand wants to work things out but when something pretty much anything happens she gets annoyed and its over again.

I can't for some reason let go of her. And for some unknown reason, which I don't care about anymore. I gave her my heart and I would give everything else I have to her aswell.

Anyway last night I went out with some friends and even though nothing happened when I went to a club a girl came up to me outside and said we should all go in and have a good time. there were 4 including her and me and my 2 friends.We pretty much all just got waived through. When inside I was bit liquored already before we even could order a drink I noticed my friends weren't inside. I went out side and they couldn't come in as one friend had a hat on. So instead of going back in we left.

One of the girl I want to be with, friends saw me and told her that she thought I was with my g/f because I had my arm around her.

She got mad at me tonight and said that we are not going to work things out. I can't help but feel completely destroyed right now. We ended things off and of course I feel like there is no hope. Again though I can't think of being with anyone else.

She doesn't trust me right now (another long story but for another time) And with out the time to grow and nurture it. I know it can't just be given. I have no way of getting through to her that we just need time to get through this. unfortunately I just can't seem to get.

No matter what I say to her she finds another reason to shoot me down. I know I should stop fighting her and just let her go. I just can't seem to do it.

__________________
"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man
affected us as kids,we'd all be running around in
darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening
to repetitive electronic music."
-Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989