sudden random impulses to destroy
 

does anyone here ever get sudden impulses to do something harmful or destructive? (like burn someone's house down)...

if i may quote the simpsons episode "The little leprechaun tells me to burn things!"

I some times have the urge to go and destroy things that drive me nuts. The voices in me *word deleted* tell me to!

Sometimes when I'm really, really, really angry. But I usually just stomp my feet, scream at the top of my lungs at people, tear up paper and throw water bottles and other non-breakable objects at the wall.

Do you mean random impulses to destroy, like out of the blue? No, can't say I get that.

I understand what you are talking about. I get that at least once a day. it doesnt matter what it is ill break it. cant controll it but have to destroy it.

I think you've got the satan in you. Time to fetch the exorcism tongs!

exorcise this! *bang: smashes you over the head with a chair*:-P oops

I get random impulses to destroy objects as well. Except I always follow through with it. It's almost never anything big , usually paper or garbage. Just scares me that I might snap on my computer or car someday.

the worst i did was punch a hole in a cinder block in my room.

I do get these impulses.... and sometimes I act on them, it greatly depends on the situation (and how much liquor I might have in my system... ;)

Usually when I get this impulses I go do something stupid, I think sometimes it's just for the rush and other times it's just to be destructive because I've always been taught that being destructive is bad... and well, sometimes being destructive helps me on other levels. But most of the time when I feel like doing something like this.. as I said, I go do something that may be destructive.. but it's stupid... (ie stealing lawn gnomes or something childish like that.. .always gives me great fun in life).

i can agree with you on that one, i'm having relationship issues so i'm really trying to fight the urge to break something, as soon as i wake up a little bit i'm going to beat the crap out of my punching bag... i love my punching bag, it's so fulfilling.

I get those urges all the time.....thats why I made a sign and posted it on my wall that says "bang head here." I need to lay off those hardcore action movies like Greese (ROFL)....those types of movies piss me off and make me want to break something.

I get thoes on at least a daily basis, I never act on them which is a very very good thing considering mine more have to do with people than obects.... ie : random impulses to bite out someones jugular vein, or a impulse to break someones neck, and other ones like picking things up an beating heads in. All this comes when not angry an compleately out of the blue..... rather annoying...

I'm calling bullshit here.

Seek help. Really, I mean it.

Only when I have PMS and have to deal with stupid people, or people that think they are better than anybody else. Today was one of those days.

wait....there are occasional times when someone has REALLY pissed me off and I fantasize bout doing something destructive or really low down....but then my concious takes over and I feel guilty for thinking like that

Re: sudden random impulses to destroy
 

Yes. That exact thing happened to me. One time I got INSANELY sick for a week, had a horribly feaver and one night I could not sleep at all. I had all this shit going through my head about what would happen if I burned down the house, what we would do to live, and what would happen to me for doing it, and all this crazy stuff. Eventually my mom pulls me back together at like 2 am and I'm sitting in the bathroom, she said I was sitting there mumbling when she wokeup and heard me. So I told her what happened and she took me to the doctor the next day (it was already sceduled) and we told him, and he said its somewhat normal. It was happening from all the anxiety and stress the feaver was causing and my mind was trying to find something else to focus on rather then thinking about being sick. And since I was half asleep it was basically a dream that I was experiencing.

When i'm upset I often have the urge to punch somebody, but not kill them. People always say when you're angry you should punch a pillow or something, well that doesn't work. If I really needed to punch, i'd have to punch a person or something I hate for it to work.

i've punched my pillow a few times, except that didn't end well... i bruised the palm of my hand all the way through the pillow and almost broke my finger. (i was holding it in the other hand because i didn't feel like leaning over the bed and swinging down on it).

a few times i punched my door frame.... i cracked it one time and split my knuckle another(i'm talking about the border around the door, not the door itself.. we have flimsy hollow doors)

now i just go down and beat on the punching bag for a while... by the way it's great exercise and can be great cardio if you know how to do it right (my alternative for running... although it doens't do much for the fat in my legs)

The gym usually takes care of all of that for me. Nothing like pushing around as much weight as you can for an hour to relieve you of that pent up urge to vent...

to that i have to say "but i'm angry NOW!"

I have two psychirists an this is what I get after ive been helped by the lithium an epival anyway since i dont act on them tis mearly impulses I get, only person they bother is me lmao

you should get a punching bag

had one didnt help lol

When I was 17, I got in a real bad arguement with my mom. I got so pissed off, I punched my door IN HALF in two hits. I shit you not. I then proceeded to kick the lower half into my room. Thankfully, I have enough restraint, because I could have easily killed someone had I hit them that hard. Later on, when I got picked up by a cop as I walked down the street, I told him what happened. When he go to my house and saw what was left of the door he said "I thought you said you broke your door, not annihilated it."

how do you feel about that? and how do you feel it's shaped you?

I felt like shit afterwards. Once the cops left, I actually cried in my mom's arms. However, we've never been in a big arguement after that, so I think on the whole, it was a good thing.

Why did a cop pick you up?

And why would you let one in your house?

because he left the house and his mom was worried so she called the police to find him like a good parent would do?

Well, the fight was basically like this:
Mom: Turn down the music!
Me: Ok (turn down music a small amount)
Mom: More!
Me: God damn it, I turned it down already.

Continue til we are both screaming at each other and she threatens to kick me out of the house. Mind you I didn't have anywhere to go. She says she's calling the cops, and that's when I lost it. Hit the door, put a hole in it, hit it again and it cracks in half. Then I kick the bottom half into my room. My mother is stunned and doesn't do anything. My grandma was living with us at the time goes over to the neighbors and calls the cops. I decide I need to get the fuck out of there and chill at a friend's house. Get dressed and start walking down the street. Get a couple hundred yards when a cruiser pulls up to me and asks who I am. I tell him, he asks me to get in the car. By the way, this cop was fucking cool. Didn't act like a dick and wasn't power tripping because he gets to carry a gun. We talked a little bit, he said he sympathized because he had a fucked up family situation when he was young. Get to the house where another cop is already there. Go inside, here is Bad Cop of the Good Cop/Bad Cop equation. He reads me the riot act. I don't say shit except for "Yes massa', no massa'" to him. They make me agree to go to anger management, or else I'll be forced to go by court order. Mom doesn't press charges, they leave, I tell my mom and grandma I'm sorry I'm a shithead and cry like a baby. Last time I've cried, but it felt good. Went to therapy once, told the guy everything that's wrong with me, since I know what my problems are and where they stem from. He doesn't really tell me anything useful. I tell my mom that once is enough, and any more therapy is a waste of time. Years later, haven't yelled at my mom once. I'd say there was a lot of shit seething under the surface, and it had to come out at some point. Thankfully, I have enough judgement even when I'm in a murderous rage to not attack people I love. It is also extremely hard to piss me off, but when I blow, it's like a volcano.

Well, that's just one story from my fucked up life. I've got tons more, but I'm afraid I've already bored you guys by now.

By the way, I think it's kind of funny that I'd tell this story in Paranoia, when it really belongs in Living. Oh well.

it stemmed... (the thread)

but anyway, i hope you do realize now that an argument over the volume of your music was a dumb one, if not you really should seek help....

my mom would always find reasons to yell at me, and torturously i learned (in all situations) to pick my fights. It's helped me along the way

Like I said, that was years ago, and I've since changed my ways. The volume of the music was simply the catalyst anyway.

I've had days where I've really wanted to knock the living snot out of crowds of people. Sometimes all at once. It's usually just a bad day, but sometimes the urge just hits me out of the blue. I'm really glad I have good self control and it usually goes away after a while. If not, I find a good friend to talk to. That will work if nothing else short of slamming heads does the trick.

I've had these urges periodically, but only when I'm under too much stress and I need to go relax for a bit till I'm fine

I sometimes blow up when stress piles up too much. Basically, I'm just been bottling up any sort of emotion I've had since my fther died almost three years ago. I'm getting to the point where my eyes will start to water when there's anything remotely sad on TV, most of which I always shrugged off. I spazzed at my brother the other day when he really started getting on my nerves. I'm starting to find ways to keep myself calm so I don'ot end up going off on someone and really hurting them if they piss me off.

On a lighter note, I was joking the other day with the other mods that I have impulses to destroy every time somone signs up and posts that ipod pyramid scheme in six boards.

i'm surprised, i'm under a great deal of stress and i havn't had even one... maybe it's a different type of stress... work and relationship stress? i dunno.

People like you guys threw a vodka bottle off the balcony through the back window of my CRX costing me $500 in glass and installation. Try and contain yourself next time.

Thanks.

no but that's a good idea.... lol, it's so much more fun than water balloons.... especially if you drink the vodka first or light it on fire.

No... those people are called drunk assholes... there's a huge difference.

EDIT: Oh, and as for the topic of the thread- Yes. My mind thinks up horrible things to act out on others all the time. I have to constantly be conscious of it and not let them become reality. Yes, if you're thinking that's a scary thought, you're right.

see the above post by analog...

If I'm in a pissy mood, I get the urge to destroy whatever room I happen to be in right then to let it out, but usually just sit and steam