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Double days
This is a rant in general, but if you know of anything that would help, post or PM me... I swear, my family could make some shrink rich.
I learned about the societal expectation of women to have what is called a double day from a sociology class last spring. Simply put, women are supposed to put in a full day at work, and run the house, cook, clean, deal with kids / family etc when they get home. OK, I'm a 19 year old college student, working two jobs, living with my parents, so I know that I've got it easier than some.
But the fact is, both my mother and I are expected to put in a double day and I am sick of it. The men in my family don't do jack, and I can't speak my mind without my father informing me that I am disrespectful and insulent or "mouthy" and then dismissing me anyways. How I came to be an independent minded modern young woman baffles me. But I do not think that I am being unreasonable here.
I'm tired all the time because I'm working and trying to make everyone happy here and I'm frustrated because my father doesn't have a clue. (He throws the biggest hissy fits that you have ever seen, then sulks. In short, he makes everyone more miserable than we normally are and it is just easier to appease him.) I hate myself for appeasing him, but its just easier.
I am in a financial stranglehold because I cannot afford to move out, but I am afraid that I am going to suffer a mental breakdown if I don't do something to make things better.
Can anyone help me? Or at least let me know how you deal? Words of encouragement would be nice... I'd really appreciate it because I'm afraid that I'll explode, or melt or something.
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