Emote,
I can't even begin to understand your story since I don't know you, but I do have firsthand experience with chemical imbalances. I prefer to just call it what it is whether depression, bi-polar, whatever. Our society is scared to death of people that have these medical conditions. Mainly because we don't understand them. I was the same exact way before I discovered I was bi-polar. It's been 4 years since my initial manic episode, which is something that I, nor my wife that witnessed it will ever forget. It lasted for about a week, the last night landed me in the hospital. I was fortunate and got excellent treatment and taking 2 pink pills a day keeps me functioning just fine. It also helped that I've been married for 23 years. My wife and family stood by me, and today I live a normal life. I do have to deal with it daily, but usually no more than taking my meds. My wife got the education she needed to understand my disorder, and our sex life has actually been better since that time.
My advice, if you can't see yourself dealing with this "till death do us part", then end it now and give HER a chance to find someone that can. She will need all the support and love she can get. Good luck.
Regards
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