NeumannU87

OK, this is gonna take a little explaining, but I need some advice:

So there is this girl (I'll call her THE girl) that I went to high school with. We knew each other a little (we had mutual friends) but never really hung out. About a year after graduation, we started hanging out once or twice a week (usually me and my best friend, and her and one of her friends, so not alone) She had a boyfriend who sucked and I had a girlfriend in Boston. But we always sorta clicked. We always laughed at the same things, finished each others sentences, and we'd talk about what we wanted out of life, and we both wanted the same thing. We'd talk on the phone all the time...you know. I really liked this girl alot, like a real lot.

But then she started to blow me off...I thought it was because I was coming on a little to strong. (I had broken up with my g/f in an unrelated incident) So, totally randomly, I ran into one of her best friends (who I also knew from high school) and ended up dating her for three years. About halfway through our three year realtionship, "the girl" ended up staying with us for almost two months because she was having problems with her boyfriend. And I still liked her, so having her near me was great. We'd hang out and laugh and have a good time, but eventually "the girl" and my g/f had a falling out, and I was forbidden to talk to her.

So I left my girlfriend this spring after she did bad things with the singer of my band...but anyway. So I randomly called "the girl" up after not speaking to her for almost two years, just to reconnect, since I was now allowed to. I went over on a Sunday night and we started talking. We had a couple drinks (but not drunk) and it all started coming out. We both told each other that we really liked each other and that we both knew we'd be perfect together. She told me that the reason she chose to stay with me and my g/f was because it was the closest she could be to me without actually being with me...it was fan-fucking-tastic. We ended up kissing and snuggling in bed all night. Unfortuantely, she was still with her boyfriend.

Well last month, she broke up with her boyfriend. We've stayed up till 5 am 4 nights in the past two weeks just talking a lying in bed together. We go out and hang out and have so much fun and we talk about things like "when we're together," and she asked me if I'd wait for her to clear her head...she is a little out of sorts after ending a 4 year realtionship. We're really touchy-feely and cute with each other, but when it comes to us being together, she's still a little stand-offish...

She is so THE girl. I mean THE girl. We have both told each other how we've felt for the past five years, and it's all built up to this...I've let her slip from me twice, and I'm determined not to do it again...Am I just being paranoid that she'll get away again? I know I'd move on if she did, but I KNOW in my heart she THE ONE. Just stick by it and it will come, right? Any input is SOOO appreciated.

Sorry about the novel.