I just copied & pasted it as is from another site where I posted it at. It's a pretty long one though but I think it just might be my best work yet. It's a little more like poetry than rap with long winded lines formatted to depict my every emotion and provide some what of a visual picture of the events as they happen and creating a canvas for my exact feelings to be splashed upon. Here it is
Why'd Ya Have To Go And Be My Best Friend?"
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I started writtin this rhyme cause I had a madd crush. Then stopped cause of some sad shit(explained in the rhyme) One a my best friends started goin through the same predicament I was in. I re-wrote this...and finished it for him with hopes that it would help him (and anyone else who ever felt that way) cope. This is more like lookin for the right words to say rather than focusin on the actual rhyme tip. Kinda long but here it is yo.....
Why'd Ya Have To Go And Be My Best Friend?
Yo check it day one introduction to a forbiden affection 4 a loved one//Taboo when “love you” became between 2 closely friended someones//A painful circumfrence of a never-endin cycle between “I love you” No! “I like you” confused dumbness causin numbness due to how it was and how it wasn’t//She got my heart racin//Constant debatin caught up in that infatuation I felt the hurt and frustration of the painful realization that she ain’t want me and it’s a feelin that I hated//Recent conversations played their part to makin feelins which were dead awaken//Writtin madd and concentratin every written statement neva seperatin//Whats real from what is truth serenade of a confused youth as living proof//Of my affection I considered her a blessin sweetest confection it was only right that I was confessin all my love but how to do it was the question?//I was scared to death and open to any suggestions//On my mind 24/7 so stressin//My eyes caressin every soft expression while rejection only fueled my pain in resurrection thus attackin me from all directions//See do I really wanna grab for sloppy seconds from ya asshole man who's showin no signs a steppin WTF was I expectin?!//Ignorin others at the tiny chance we could be lovers in denial all the while you were torn for another thus I suffered; silently though all inside of me had ruptured//You loved me once and made it blatant but I hesitated when the feelings situated//Lord knows we mighta made it when you were vacant if I hadn’t waited now it’s wasted and I have to face it God I hate it!//Wrote this rhyme in that lonely time and saved it now I wish I’d seranaded before the year had faded and you & I had seperated in slow paces to distant places where our faces refused to recognize at how our eyes displayed it//Never such a strangeness as a love so nameless I had to fake it due to situations gettin complicated//It became a struggle when I’d hug you every muscle screamed “I love you” just a couple a thousand times if just our minds could intertwine and hear how mine had spoken of you//In a slightly troubled mumble vaugely subtle with an abysmal puddle full of tears at how it all ended with a shovel...LOST!...unable to rebuttle only slowly crumble as it tumbled down-hill and cut on every rock n jagged rubble//Left me puzzled; had it lasted it’d become that of a bubble floatin over needles up and down like every curve upon my knuckles//Thus I’ve nothin left to do but stumble as my heart is ripped apart and pummeled//The worst kinda secret when your unable to conceal it couldn’t keep it only a matter of time before a friend a mine revealed it to her face she was confused and I could feel it//Immediate weirdness came and veered it’s ugly head that you could see in our appearance things have changed it’s not the same and I had feared this since the beginning and now the ending is at it’s nearest//First came the avoidance where our voices became nothing more than noises and ya didn’t seem to notice when my being was at it’s brokest was it confusion or annoyance?//Of all things mere moments would’ve aquainted me to know this but, no-it’s more like cat n mouse with rat traps and poisons//Left with only wonderin why the letters stopped comin in and now your running away the light a day has come to thunderin//I’m coverin my face with smiles to hide whats under them but inside I’ve all but died in slumberin//It’s come to this I called your number and the words “It’s Cris” had never left my tounge again//Because....I called and finally got an answer but there was no banter only soft chatter of you tellin ya sis she shouldn’t have answered and you were madd at her//As if it couldn’t have gotten sadder all I heard next was a click and nothing more of you there after(Thus concludes the final chapter)//No grudges I’ve gotten better and saved every letter we’d written together forever in my subconcious to be honest I’ll never forget her//I was honored to have had you that long though I wish it had been longer I’ve grown stronger since then but way back when I was never fonder......
So why’d ya have to go and be my best friend? If you wasn’t we mighta been on the phone this minute but if you wasn’t these feelins mighta never existed ya voice whispas in my mind from time to time and I’m goin miss it...
Why’d ya have to go and be my best friend? I loved you......
I've nothing left to do but wonder......why?...I wonder....
Hope you felt it. I'm really proud of this piece and I really put a lot of thought into it. By all means please be brutally honest. If you don't like it please tell me why and give me an explanation. The format is really weird to read I'm not very good at that sort of thing that was the more traditionally structure for writing rap lyrics when I first started posting them on the internet. I hope it wasn't too much of a burden. Thank you very much for reading though. If you like this one I will post more when I can.
Asta!!
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