I hope i didn t come off unappreciative of your feedback, i am truly flattered.
It is just that when I write poems like these, they take me literally about 1 minute to write.
There is a picture in my head, all of the paint from the picture disolves and runs through my viens. I need to put that paint into words before it thins out and disappears.
I'm not trying to be sappy but that is how it is when I write.
To goto the picture and start erasing the posture of the arm and put a new one is difficult for me.
I guess If I was putting these into a book then I would and should edit them,
but I look at my threads here kind of like the exhibition thread, I'm kind of putting naked pictures of myself up.
And to put little clothes over the picture to hide my ugliness well heh heh. I um lol, made myself laugh on that one.
This ugly style of writing is like an orgasm to me. I just want to push it out, make the flow and highness of the poem last as long as possible.
When I write I really don t think about what others think of the orgasm.
I'm just going errrerrrrerrrr getting off.
And I guess that is unfair to others.
I really didn t think that people would actually want to really know what was coming out of my mind and what i really thought.
So your replies have caught me off guard, and has provoked thought.
Sorry to ramble on like this.
I feel kind of like a shitty writer, and from my grammer I guess I am heh heh.
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~Esen
What is everyone doing in my room?
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