i think you should break it clean. it will allow her to heal up quicker & you to explore the field. if you get out there for a while & find you're miserable without her (not just 'cause you're lonely, but because you miss the way she smiles, smells, etc...), let her know. maybe she'll still be interested. there are no sure things, for you or her. everything involves risk & indecision. one thing for certain is that if you stay with her without ever checking out this impulse while you're young, you will when you're older, and then risk fucking up a few more people's lives (i.e. kids).
i sound pretty opinionated in that last paragraph, but i do speak from experience. i ran pretty hard in my 20's, and i think the memories (good & bad) are the only way i have a shot at being faithful to my marriage & family now.
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